posted on Aug, 2 2009 @ 03:58 AM
I had an NDE when I was 10.
To cut a long story short I had dabbled in something I shouldn't, but being that age I didn't know any difference.
I was in a field with a friend, and I remember passing out. Next something happened that only in the last 6 months has made me re-think about certain
things that previously since reading ATS I would have thought ludicrous.
Anyway, perhaps I will come back to that in a sec. But here is the order of events...
Remember passing out, then blackness.
I see 5-8 lizard like creatures walking upright around me, no noise, but they looked like they were discussing something whilst looking at me.....at
this point, please bear with me and read until the end!!!!!!!
Blackness again, then I see multicoloured dots in front of my eyes as though they were a few feet away.
The dots suddenly start to fall downwards, gathering speed so that after a few seconds they look like streaks of light, giving me the impression that
I was in a very fast elevator going upwards, although I had no physical sensation of this.
The lights slow down till eventually I just see coloured dots, then blackness.
I suddenly say, in an adult voice "I'm not ready yet". The reply was "we will give you another chance" and with that I see the lights again and
I go back down.
When I wake up I have total amnesia, I mean I looked at the grass and didn't even know what it was. It was very scary. I remember looking down the
lane and not knowing what anything was, even consciousness itself didn't register.
Gradually, over a period of a few minutes my memory came back and I could see my friend next to me just sitting there. Within 5 or so minutes I felt
like nothing had even happened, no side effects, no after effects, nothing. Just a bit shaken up by the experience.
I can say that from my experience, it did NOT feel like a dream. It felt like I was conscious through the episode, I little like a lucid dream I
suppose but the difference being that when you dream lucidly you KNOW and REALISE that you are just dreaming. I knew, in that state, that this was
for real.
I am 35 now and convinced 99.999% that the soul exists forever after this state of existence. I have sought for answers and found something that
rings true after meeting a few people that have had similar experiences. A lot of it has been discussed on this board over the years. Anyway, I can
give more info on that if you wish. The reason I don't say 100% is because how can you ever be sure that this was not a normal function of a dying
brain? Having experienced it though, I think it was real. I had a feeling of 'all knowledge', as though I knew at that point when I spoke my place
in the universal scale of things. I also had a feeling of 'knowing' the wider picture of what I was doing on earth but could not fill in the
detail, as though when I came back down this feeling was clouded.
The most challenging part for me was the bit about the lizardmen. Now lets get this straight, I used to ridicule people who go on about reptillians
and the like, there are a lot of deluded and scary people on ATS and the mere notion that there are lizard like creatures around us makes me roll my
eyes. It was only 6 months or so ago that I suddenly started thinking about my NDE in detail that I made a connection. However, the experience was so
real to me and at the time was not influenced by any suggestion of aliens, reptillians, conspiracies etc so if it were just a dream where the hell
did that come from? I have to resign myself to the fact that if my experience was 100%, I also have to accept the first part of the experience.
I don't expect anyone to believe it all to be real, I think one can only do this if they experience it themselves. I am not nuts, I am a stockbroker
with a good education, a loving family with 2 young daughters and a very stable life.
Sorry for the long post, just felt compelled to add my 2c