posted on Jul, 30 2009 @ 05:19 AM
If you believe in Biblical Scripture, Enoch and a certain King were two that never died.
If you believe in higher consciousness, all of this is not real, and when we obtain our higher self, anything is possible and we can create, without
limitations, reality and instantaniously be anywhere at any moment, past, present and future, as we wish.
My father was one like you. He considered death to be it. -The end, Done.
Funny that, as a child, he had an apparition of Mary appear to him, yet he would not attend mass, church functions or even give up well placed
explatives, while my mother is very much a religious person and has saintly qualities.
What caused him to be this way,? Some, believe, (I think woul, that a personal appearance by Mary to you would be a life changing religious
experience that would further you in your faith.
What could cause a lack of participation after such an event?
For my father it was that a parish priest was not available for his fathers memmorial.
It pissed him off so bad, he never went back, and for awhile, chastised my mother for continuing there.
On his deathbed, he couldn't believe how easy it is to "go to heaven" as my sisters worried about his eternal life for years, convinced him that
all he had to do was ask Jesus and believe, or such.
I wasn't there during the, evidently successful attempts to redeem his soul, and found out later from my sister who convinced him, alone at the
When we gathered around, keeping is non-blinking eyes moist and attempting to offer comfort, but his heavily medicated state was somewhat depressing
as helpless as we are in these situations.
As he was struggling to breath, but stubbornly made sure all of us had arrived so he could have a last goodbye.
While gathered there, my sisters began letting him know that he will be in heaven soon and he doesn't have to fight the pain anymore, and citing
prayers, one by one, then in chorus.
I could tell this was not what he wanted to hear, even though he never moved, and only the watery eyes and shallow breathing wer e the only signs of
life, and since a long talk alone the day before, I hadn't spoke but to let him know I was there, but at this moment I knew he was patronising them,
I don't know how, but I just knew, and I cut in on my sisters efforts and with purpose, I spoke to him.
I said..."Hey dad..remember that time we were all at the river and all the kids were swimming in that fishing hole and you let me try your brand new
(I was fishing with a hook, sinker and salmon egg in the same hole my 5 siblings were thrashing about in, and I pulled out a nice 13" rainbow)
"You were so amazed that I caught that fish while everyone was splashing about in that hole, you gave me your pole and said "if you can catch a fish
with that pole while 5 kids are playing in the same hole, you deserve to keep it. Remember?"
"I sure was proud of that pole boy. I loved that pole."
For the first time since his condition worstened, I could feel his pleasure in hearing those words and remembering a time when, as kids we were
happily playing in the river and fishing.
At that moment, he did somehow smile, and then departed.
My Father never told me about the apparition, but he told my mother, and She told me years ago.
I do sometimes feel that that is it. The end, Done.
But, I feel better believing there is more, that death is but a birth to a place where there is no pain, suffering, crime, war, death....
Even if it isn't so, it feels better and in a sense allows me to feel purpose.
Isn't that alone worthy of some form of faith?
I feel that because of the good feeling it gives to think there is an afterlife as contrarily, the dark emotions when thinking that there is no more
and when you die, game over.
Why live a life that has no purpose and nothing to look forward to?
If it feels better, it must be better and somehow, my spirit lets me know, and that may be the proof to convince me there is more.
Right or wrong, It is healthier, IMHO.