Long time lurker, first time poster., page 1

haha, about seeing the auras, there isnt much to it. Its only when i dream, but its so normal i though it was like that for everyone. I wish i could see them while awake. I promise though I will get around to put out my findings on that and start a very intriguing discussion soon.

But until then im gonna paste a small thing i wrote about 2 years ago. I sometimes will right about myself to help better understand myself and who i am what im doing. I am pretty shy kinda person mostly, im not one to really open myself up to a community of people, online or physical. But im making changes on that right now. SO heres a little more about me.

Over the last 5 years I have been going through an extraordinary awakening of spirit and conscience mind. Though, I have always felt the world around us and the structure of our society to be very wrong, It’s just been within these years to truly understand why.

As a child I always felt special. Really truly special, and I was pleased to know that this feeling of importance and special we all once had was shared by all my friends, brothers and sister. They too feel special. Do you remember? I believe its a natural feeling amongst children when young, to feel that way. Our spirits are pure, untouched. Our experiences and time in this world prison/teaching system, along with mental and physical manipulation changes that. To convince us we are not special and keeping entertained as best they can so we lose sight of what’s truly important.

Seeing the special die out in people as they age and become wrapped in this fabricated illusion is disheartening. From ages around 10 years old I too began to lose this feeling but I noticed not quite so much as others around me. I remember even at the young age of 4-5 being able to entertain myself through thought and imagination, while others pre-occupied themselves with the hypno-tube and sports.

One thing I think that has kept me from becoming narrow-minded and mentally unwilling like so many others I see around me is my ability to lucid dream. As a child my parents unknowingly gave me the best lessons of my life whenever I miss-behaved.

They punished me by sending me to my room for hours on end. Even weeks, but not in a cruel like manner hehe. For example, one time, I was 4-5, my brother and I got a hold of matches and while playing we accidentally burned down a large field and trees behind Blackfoot trailer park. The next 2 weeks I couldn’t watch any tv, and had to spend 2 hours every day after kindergarten school in my bedroom.

These sort of punishments through my youth gave me lots of time to develop mentally and entertain myself in natural ways. I learned to put myself into various lucid dream states and do anything I wanted, and eventually get in touch with my vehicles soul. Its a very empowering feeling. Every single morning I wake up I have most total recall of my dreams and lucid dream naturally while sleep at least once a week. I have much to share and elaborate on such maters and realizations.

The events of 9-11, particularly the discoveries afterwords jolted my very core and has affected me in ways that I can never change back. Up to my early 20's I was still ignorant and blind on what our life, our world, our societies and freedoms truly were. It wasn’t until I started digging for my own answers and stumbling upon interesting facts and coincidences that the illusion slowly started to become more clear.

Thats about it for now.

Most of my discoveries have all been through this wonderful site. Always pouring through the threads and downloading book recommendations, watching videos etc... I bought a 1 terabyte mybook external hard drive ive been saving all the resources too. Its almost full. Its a massive collection of video, ufo, conspiracy movies, books, posts etc.. I collect it all, no matter how outlandish they may be. Its just been my process of documenting all i know.

[edit on 19-7-2009 by mapper]