posted on Jul, 26 2009 @ 03:45 PM
been feeling as if i hadn't really put out to much usefulness yet, since i've been writing my posts at work, but now im home and can take the time
to write something helpful lol.
I'm pretty much an easy going person, just blending til im needed for something. Long ago i accepted that we live in a random world with random
events and encounters, but i have an unexplainable need for balance. Although we need bad for there to be good, once they are balanced life becomes
Idk if any1 about you guys, and girls, but since i started actually testing what i can do for/to people and looking into spirituality and religion,
the "problems of men" seem somewhat minuscule. Just that it would be so easy to solve their problems, if they just took the time to look at it from
the outside. But people don't like being told what to do, i think that's how we end up manipulating them so often, even though we don't like to.
letting them think they are doing what they want, while we are pulling their eyes open to whats in front of them. We see whats hurting them, the real
reasons, to not the insignificant stuff they are trying to fix.
Back peddling a bit, i didn't know what to call this empathy before this thread, but i did know people, and animals liked being around me, and
talking to me, people always seem to just spill their guts to me, including what i never wanted to hear or know. And when i noticed this, i began to
test it, experiment with how far i could go, what i could get out of them, and now i can pick someone apart within 3 minutes of talking to them.
My 3 closest friend, i would die for them, lets call them Bob, Sally, and Sue. Bob listens to all my crazy theories of people and the universe. Sally
keeps me anchored, she stops me from doing stupid sh*t, shes the only person I've met that i can't read. Sue is now my main test subject and the
reason i'm getting better at reading people and getting them to open up, shes been so abused mentally and physically that she has built these walls
and now she would give up any good in her life just to avoid the bad.
I have also noticed that the few people i call friends, are more of brothers and sisters to me, who help bring me down when the negative in life is to
much for me. My 3 closest friend, i would die for them, lets call them Bob, Sally, and Sue. Bob listens to all my crazy theories of people and the
universe. Sally keeps me anchored, she stops me from doing stupid sh*t, shes the only person I've met that i can't read. Sue is now my main test
subject and the reason i'm getting better at reading people and getting them to open up, shes been so abused mentally and physically that she has
built these walls and now she would give up any good in her life just to avoid the bad.
Other than them there are a few people who just appear in my life, spill out their life story, i give them my input and they r gone as soon as they
came. One example is this man, i have no clue what his name is, but while i was at work, about 4 am, chilling at the local quick stop, drinking a blue
raspberry slushie and smoking, he came up to me and just started talking about everything, how he was abused as a child, tried suicide, refuses to
have kids bc/ he doesn't wanna poison the world, and about what kind of women we like, for some reason lol. I told him what info i had about
spirituality, and what i thought of him and other people, and then he left.
That was about 3 months ago, then 2 days ago, i saw him again, and he thanked me for what i told him, and said it changed his life, and how he saw the
world, only person to ever come back and say Thank You.
I have also noticed that when, i get upset, or just overwhelmed i like to go for long rides through the country, either by car or motorcycle, and i
like going excessively fast, 60-70 plus. it calms me somehow.
Sorry for making it an essay more than a post lol