posted on Jul, 14 2009 @ 01:36 PM
My whole life feels like i'm trying to remember who I am. At the core of it, I seek self-realization and in the process I'm finding it encompasses
all things. If there is any genuine benevolence in me I feel its only because I have the understanding that the alternative would be against my own
interests. Being selfless is not without selfish implications. I feel expressing mutual understanding and constructive intentions to be desired to my
perceived existence. So all the while if I come off as benevolent, it feels like I'm chasing a memory, or self-realization that seems simple and that
I might have experienced before.
In the process of self-realization I trip and fall, just like the other person said about the fool, thats exactly it. All we can expect from each
other is to be ourselves, we're not perfect and may not realize good intentions towards others are even in our interest, at least not yet or to what
Forgetful are we, like coming out of a coma and the process of remembering is conflict followed by a humbling peace of mind. You may find yourself
becomming what others consider a better person, but to me the best part of it is knowing "this is who i am, this is my true nature, I know this
now". Almost brings a tear to your eye. Every lesson, every moment in meditation where you let go of those psychological shackles and find inner
peace that resonates outward. You see in others what you used to see in yourself and you forgive their actions and feel empathy for their inner
conflicts. It pains you to see them in such a familiar state that you wish to liberate them and the liberation of another seems to be mutualy
liberating to me.
To wake up the others in the dream, for some reason it seems important to my own existence.
Remembering is liberation. Call my words BS but they echo deep within me. There was a time when I was different, but much liberatiion through
"remembrance" has transformed me.
I like this thread idea.
[edit on 14-7-2009 by CavemanDD]