Yeah...
So
That's what they do for a living
Gather information
If you put out information, even retarded information they are going to gather it... that's what they are paid to do.
And lol, doesn't actually bother e if they locate and keep tabs on the more serious nutters... I mean seriously, if I get looked over ... you know
i'm a weird but harmless imaginative guy, do I care, could be maybe a little embarrassing lol but so what?
A portion of my life now actually is a result of being watched more...
In theory, just about everyone is a Felon one way or another.... there are allot of laws out there, many you'd never even know your breaking
perhaps...
And I know I can't change that, I like the technology and... privacy restraints aren't as simple as.... Don't Open their Mail, not anymore.
So it kind of challenges me... if I want to use the adult stage of my life here to DO Something be Credible... to hold myself to a higher standard.
I've been ...working on being a better person... cut out partying, porn following allot of very ZEN like philosophies, leading a simple life...
In part Selfish Health... in Part because of the economy and having to examine waste of time and energy and other aspects of life...doing without
and partly
because everything I do can be watched and... it would be extremely hard to get away with anything if they wanted to catch you at something...
and I figure as a guy that makes a habit of challenging convention and has allot of ideas some of them silly, some of them eccentric, some of them
perhaps i hope very worthy.
To be taken seriously by any serious people... If they can KNOW at a whim everything from the kind of rant and tantrum I throw when I wake up on the
wrong side of the bed to what shampoo I bought yesterday...
That maybe actually accepting the challenge of being a better person and someone you can count on who isn't prone to create chaos and stupidity...
maybe it's not such a bad thing.
It's very psychologically healthy to take control of how you THINK
Not fake it
But actually examine your thoughts and... work on yourself
I'm actually becoming a rather positive person because I KNOW my words could haunt me and If you wouldn't want it to come back at you or can't
actually defend it as RIGHT to say, you probably don't want to think that way either...
So i'm kind of entering this... quest for more purity in my life
and
I can only say i'm a happier healthier person
People poo poo the whole line "If you have nothing to hide you have nothing to worry about"
But having worked for some time now on having Nothing to hide...
It Just feels good
Like...
I've been thinking about putting my picture up instead of my Cat, being completely real...
and
Even a Year ago I wouldn't have done that
Why?
Because I was more prone to saying bizarre things or had behaviors I'd be ashamed of or would worry about offending friends with my real thoughts and
I had allot of anger going on still in me... not fake Anger which I enjoy sometimes but I was kind of pissed of at the world lol and wouldn't want to
have been accountable for things I said...
Today... (not just because of Ats but career as well)
I'm doing things I wouldn't have done...
Like I am probably going to publish and... I have been in e commerce for years but never did anything big... I needed the anonymity
But having examined my thoughts and worked on being more humanistic and optimistic as a person...
I'll maybe make a movie not just work behind the scenes on B flicks, i'm going back to school and i'm not... afraid to go for the PHD when I can
and have to face mainstream opinion so much...
And I don't care so much about privacy anymore
Not long ago I would have looked at that as giving in... accepting something wrong being done to me, but there were things about e, i wouldn't want
anyone close to me to know...
Those things being gone, I can be a member of the community I can... go allot further
allot of my posts lately have that theme...
The economy can't hold me back, nearly as much as I have held myself back... over stupid negative things anyway...
I'm close to being a person I'd want people to look at... and don't much care if the CIA is in here...
I actually see America as a Good cool place... see the best in people because that's where my mind is focused
Not that i was ever a BAD person, I just never really examined myself before and made a real effort to take out the trash fully and reach my true
potential...
Being watched isn't so bad I think



