reply to post by NephraTari
LOl no you did not, the thread just took a back seat to all the other great ones out on the main page. Even I have not come back in a while. BUt since
I am here and you seem to understand the message and that it is the message, not the messenger I will continue.
Call it PTSD or what you will, but barely a month goes by when I am not reminded of this story in one way or another. There is residual based feelings
and questions yet to be quenched.
For many years I did all I could to simply put it behind me as if forgetting would somehow keep me safe and out of harms way, and jail from the
alleged kiss he gave me at the end.
I have many times seen the purple 'window' in a room or even out doors, it comes like a holographic reminder of what has happened and what is
happening from the unseen shadows of life's illusion.
If only one question could be answered it would probably be to know who accepted the offer of total dominion over the entire planet, the entire
Universe? Is it a male or like myself a female? Did it happen at the same time as my experience or shortly afterward? If so who is it and how did they
rise to be one of the most powerful people on the planet? What is their life and do they see the darkman on a regular basis?
If it was different and I had said yes, would the world now be a different place? Had I sacrificed myself and then made positive loving changes would
the world be where it is today with all the perversions, hatred, violence and pollution? Could I have deceived the ultimate deceiver?
How many more like myself are out there and how often is the offer made? I cannot be the only one, it is not logical.
I see his evil influence each time a picture of a darken starving hand is placed before me, I see it as I watch my precious Mother Ocean being raped
and murdered. I see it when children are forced into servitude for wars they cannot win. I see it as the religions of the world continue to carve out
cookie cutter replicas of the same with out love for his fellow man unless they too believe in the same, no tolerance, no real love, just scratch the
surface and there goes another bombing or murder in the name of religion and separatism.
For most of my life I have wandered about thinking that I had done some great deed, that somehow in the silence of that void I had bought some more
time for all of us, all of this. But as the years go farther from the experience I can hardly recall as I once did the Angel who selflessly left a
profound battle, to help me win the battle of the spiritual.
I can barely recall the reality of the bizarre experience, and that worries me. I am no longer the sweet innocent young girl who fought the villainous
alien creature from an alternate dimension, just a simple woman waiting for the next shoe to drop.
Life has jaded me over the years, has hardened me in ways only a broken heart can understand.
Is this process we see happening today part of what the darkman proposed? Why takeover a world that is corrupt and dying? What is the sense in that?
What would it's worth be other than to assist other lower astral entities to begin at the beginning and evolve for the next few million years into us
Is this life's final manifesto? Are we only to experience total death and dying process as a whole? We were once new and freshly born, we have lived
only a second in eternity and yet is it possible that we die now when we had the chance, have the chance at bliss on earth, Eden?