Does it matter? Do you realize you are asking for someone to say something you can accept? It's not about acceptance, it's about
Since it's about understanding, then what is important is not if he was real and such. What is important is that you can understand and know what
he is saying for yourself. Afterall, no matter what it's always going to be a story to you correct? As we were not personally there, all we have
to go by is the story itself.
Always keep that in mind IMO. Understanding, not acceptence. Proverbs talks about these things a good bit, I highly recommend Proverbs.
10The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: and the knowledge of the holy is understanding.
So what is the difference? This is easiest to explain in terms of math. I say this all the time, but apparently I can't say it enough. You
understand math and how to add, so we can see the difference in that.
A man can accept that 1+1=2 is true. A man can memorize that, repeat it and preach and and claim to be speaking the "truth". And technically, if
a man says 1+1=2 is true, then they are right. However, that is different than the man who actually understands math and how to add. Just
because someone is able to repeat those words, doesn't mean they understand math. Because they have accepted, rather than understanding they are
unable to apply it to their lives.
So the man who merely accepted and memorized 1+1=2 is still a blind fool. Because they lack understanding. But the man who understands math, he
knows why 1+1=2, and he knows many other true expressions in math as well.
It is the understanding that is important, it is the understanding, not the literal expression of that understanding that is "holy".
Seek understanding, rather than looking for worldly authorities to accept. Seek understanding of who and what you are, "know thyself".
Understanding and knowledge is how the father gives.
8All the words of my mouth are in righteousness; there is nothing froward or perverse in them.
9They are all plain to him that understandeth, and right to them that find knowledge.
10Receive my instruction, and not silver; and knowledge rather than choice gold.
11For wisdom is better than rubies; and all the things that may be desired are not to be compared to it.
17I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.
18Riches and honour are with me; yea, durable riches and righteousness.
19My fruit is better than gold, yea, than fine gold; and my revenue than choice silver.
20I lead in the way of righteousness, in the midst of the paths of judgment:
21That I may cause those that love me to inherit substance; and I will fill their treasures.
Doubt is "good". Doubt is an admission that you do not understand. Of course, it's only "good" if you seek to fix that doubt by gaining
understanding. But honesty is one of the first steps of gaining wisdom, and it is honest to simply admit - "I do not know". It is very very
respectable IMO, and I wish more people would do it. It says to me - you are having a hard time simply accepting. And for good reason too.
The father is within you. The father who knows all is within. And the father gives in terms of understanding, rather than acceptance. What you
are honestly doing is you are looking at outside authorities to accept. And they way they are presented, is contrary to good understanding.
Because of that, it leads to confusion. You are being asked to accept things that are not understandable.
Pay close attention to the words accept and understand in the following verses.
2How long will ye judge unjustly, and accept the persons of the wicked? Selah.
3Defend the poor and fatherless: do justice to the afflicted and needy.
4Deliver the poor and needy: rid them out of the hand of the wicked.
5They know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course.
See it? Those who accept, do not understand. What did we establish in Proverbs 9? That knowledge of the holy is understanding.
All your answers can be found within. Search within yourself for them. Trust them over the words of men. Trust the father within, not men. You
need the bible. I gained all that I understand separate of the bible. But of course, as you can see - once that understanding is
gained, then the bible will make a bit more sense.
What do you search for? "Jesus"? Not really in the way it is presented. I will give you one of the "keys" to the bible here.
6Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
On the outside, it sounds like it means "accept Jesus". Only if you "accept Jesus" can you come to the father. However, here is the key and
wisdom. Jesus is saying he is those things for a reason. He is the "way", the "truth", and the "life". It means these 3 things are
interchangeable with the word "Jesus". So, the way to the father it too seek those things. Not a physical or literal Jesus, but to seek those 3
So, seek those 3 things within. These are the things I was searching for when I found the father. I did not even know the bible talked in these
ways at the time. I looked out into the world and I was distraught. I asked, how can people live amongst each other without all this death and
destruction and in peace. I didn't realize it, but I was actually seeking the way. But I no longer trusted men, or what they would say, so that
left me to rely on my own understanding, and thus I started to put my trust not in men, but on the father within. From that point, a whole new
world opened up.
So, ask yourself that question. What do people need to do in order to have a peaceful society. Not what "system" or things to do they need to
"conform" too, plenty of those ideas around where 1 man serves another. But how can all the people live in peace without such things as that?
I'll bet you'll start to see the path and the way open up to you.
I wish I could do more for you, but men can't give understanding to each other directly. We can only express the understandings we gain. Once
understanding is gained, your entire perspective on the world will change. You will start to see through people and their scams.
Good luck, I'll be happy to answer any questions and such for you. But of course, in doing so you are still looking externally, rather than within.
All I can really do is point out the flaws and wrongs about acceptance and point you in the right direction. The rest is a personal journey that
you must do for yourself.
You are closer than you think however. As I said earlier, you've already taken some of the hardest steps.