posted on Jul, 13 2009 @ 09:21 AM
reply to post by teapot
In my opinion, God is the most ruthless of beings.
I cant help but point out how a lot of Christians are just like that (I can see from your post you're not one of those). I keep hearing "Jesus
should be seen in a Christian"- Have you noticed how many of them are ruthless? Things that make ya go "Hmmm"....
As a believer, my relationship with God does not always involve me having reason to give thanks and praise or any other form of worship. Sometimes I
just hate Him, and I tell Him so.
Y'know- I think God would rather hear an honest, screaming, cussing tirade than a forced smile and fakery....
I am glad to know I am not the only one who feels this way. I often have heard "How can you HATE God??!"... I list the reasons. I am then told I am
demon possessed, hell bound, insane- you name it, and I end up being avoided like I am radioactive AND a plague carrier! I know I am probably well
known for my anti Christian, "I hate, loathe, and utterly despise God" stance- Thing is- this didn't happen overnight. This was a gradual process-
and a good % of it was from the way I was treated at church, by my ex boss and his daughter, various pastors and ministers... And a couple of those
*insert expletives of your choice here* trips to the big, fat televangelists. If I never had any of the other ruin me- THAT contributed a LOT. I never
saw such a scam in all my life- and I hope never to ever again.
I want to say something comforting but don't know where to start.
Don't feel bad. The actual few Christians I can say actually do like they SHOULD and not like the rest of the herd are completely stumped. Not a one
can get an answer from God on this, Not a one can find any fitting words of comfort- and at least I get the 'satisfaction' of that. I cant call what
I get actual comfort, and satisfaction isn't quite the right word, either- but it's close. Maybe it's the fact I *do* get a measure of 'comfort'
by their honesty. I'll take an honest answer over a bucket of worthless, preprogrammed nonsense any day of the week.
[edit on 13-7-2009 by wylekat]