posted on Jul, 1 2004 @ 07:18 PM
Well my dad strongly thinks that i should stopping taking anti-depressants and start "being a man about it". But how can i? i know for a fact that i
cannot cope with out taking my medication, last time i stopped taking them, i started cutting my arms up and had a failed suicide attempt. I hate it
when people, especially my dad says im weak and i should sort things out on my own, but i can't. Its hard living each day, being extremely paraniod
and hearing voices, i tried speaking to my parents about how i feel and they have just blanked it out. Then when i spoke about the doctors feeling i
have developed other personalities, my parents just told me to never speak to it about people because people will think im insane. But im not insane,
im very sick at the moment.
I like to think im a normal 18 year old male, but with all the stuff that happen in my past, the pain has effected me a lot. Flashbacks and nightmares
to events in my childhood haunt me all the time, just horrible stuff. As i said in an early post, the depression was the start of other problems, now
i have been diagnosed with paranoid personality disorder.
But seriously, i hate taking the pills, none have helped and i feel that they have only made things worse for me.