posted on Jun, 29 2009 @ 11:15 PM
....what i get often is, "don't take it personally."
only YOU can know your own mental wellness AND capability...this is crucial!
i do not know what or why.
it is best for you to clear as many actions you may have accumulated over the course
of your life that may have been hurtful or disrespectful to others, this is when you shall
be allowed certain aspects of existence that are blocked for you now. But you must
be honest with these actions. It must be real.
As you begin to heal various aspects of your life so shall your social existence
become more comfortable...if there are not extreme circumstances like law or crime or
but certain actions will not cease, for if you are targeted by something this "aware,"
ie: every aspect of who, what, and why you are, you will begin to wonder,
and here is a grave spoiler of a tempestuous truth that most might find difficult to believe or challenging to comprehend:
have a thought, something that is stakable, like a social normalcy, but a disrespectful
action, morally, by thought, and walk into a store, watch as this thought is played
out for you somehow. Even exaggerated...then tie that thought to something in
your life that seems familiar or parallel, then watch as this image or action
miraculously manifests itself before you, perhaps not instantly, but fast...
and they keep up.
the main focus one must remember, even if you have difficulty in believing
THIS FAR into it, is balance, if you anger easily, it is fed upon, and
not just small things, every single nuance that has become some sort of
negative trigger shall be preyed upon...and it goes far, for
eventually, these triggers, if not properly balanced, will create more triggers,
they're basically trying to get you to "snap."
...and you may be triumphant a thousand times over in balance, but it
will be that one time that they focus on.
can it be overcome? yes, be strong, and balanced.
it is a Path where you are completely alone...surrounded by faceless numbers
who may be friends or family and may even act as such on occasion,
but eventually, they as well, will be surging you into a comprehensive frenzy,
whereas YOU are the puzzle, all the pieces are your life's mistakes, and
putting them back together is not just finding the right pieces to fit where,
but careful thought and considerable respect, even when you are given none,
and it will take some time...
but do not dwell on the factor of time! it will be played out over and over
again, no matter how great your accomplishments, there will always be
someone who is telling you you only have this much time left or that much time til,
take your time, it is yours to take, just like everyone, step gently and
courageously through your life, and be weary and cautious of those who may
evesdrop on your willful and compassionate moments, for they will use it
against you, or try to...be discreet in otherwords, as discreet as possible,
somehow, the right people ALWAYS know when something has happened,
and the wrong people don't need to know a damn thing.
it will not be easy and i do not know what the outcome shall be,
but it WILL make you stronger both mentally and spiritually and
perhaps even physically if you choose exercise as your good thought...
...oh yeah...one more thing, very important!
in the midst of all the strange and negative aspects of life being thrown at
you from every direction, it is ABSOLUTELY CRUCIAL that you have a thought
that always allows you that comfortable balanced feeling.
something that fills you with great energy or balance, like the first time
you fell in love, that first moment, all those butterflies, allow that moment
to fill your comprehensive mind and being...this way the negativity can
not harm you, and it will try, seriously, it is strange.
Believe it or not really doesn't matter eventually, and then your
belief will take you somewhere much further into your real self.