When I was a poor kid growing up. It was jealousy, a sense of unfairness to it all. I got great grades. I worked for them. Others were jealous of my
grades. heh. Meanwhile, I was jealous of those kids from the "elite" neighborhoods who got new cars each year, drove to school, had money for dates
with the hottest chicks. I was jealous. Meanwhile, I sought work from the age of 13. I paid for my own clothes, my school lunches, my books and school
supplies. I hitchhiked to my jobs, I hitchhiked home from school after sports programs were over, which I paid for myself, not my parent. Or I
hitchhiked to work after sports were over. I worked until 11 Pm or midnight each school night, against all child labor laws, but I wasn't going to
complain. My boss loved it. lol. I went home and did my homework and got a couple hours of sleep before going back to school. Yeah, I was pissed off a
lot. Very angry. But I felt good about myself. And I was proud. Then one year the uppity folks who could afford to buy a car for their kids to drive
back and forth to school, decided they would vote against a school tax levy and so the busses were terminated. And I found myself having to get up
earlier to walk to school, hitchhiking along the way. So what did I do? I found myself, after work on the weekends, walking into the fancy
neighborhoods and vandalizing the cars of the lucky students who were born into the "elite" families. Oh, I smash windows, I peed in gas tanks, I
turned on radios and headlights to drain the batteries, I cut the air nozzles on tires. I was a one kid havoc machine. lol. And I thought I was right.
I turned on the outside faucets of all the houses in the fancy neighborhoods so their yards were flooded, their water bills were high and the water
pressure in their neighborhoods was low. It was all jealousy. It was all about a perception that life was unfair to me.
Eventually, against many odds, I educated myself. I feel bad about what I did as a high school youth. But I won't apologize for it. It is what it
And I can understand why people of lesser means "act out", so to speak.
I have no solution to this all. For myself, I became educated, I learned to love, and I realized that I could make of myself what I wanted to make of
But I guarantee, if I find some lowlife slicing the tires on my 11 year old jeep, I will kick his butt. And he will deserve it. Just like I would have
deserved a serious butt whooping if I had been caught doing my past antics.
Yeah, it's jealousy and something there about injustice.
But we can't all be super athletes, we can't all be PHD's, we can't all be geniuses and we can't all be born into wealth.
Meanwhile, if everyone had a PHD, there would be PHD's earning minimum wage flipping hamburgers and picking up french fries when a buzzer goes off at
And if we were all mulit-billionaires, the one with a dollar less, would be poor and pissed off.