reply to post by DaphneApollo
Well its not, from a very low health position, that doesnt yield to 20 years of solid prayers, imaging, wishful thinking, health food remedies,
excercise, (always get sick for weeks and weeks and out goes that), and highly active boys, my youngest is just like my work a holic father in energy
and even a bit in nature and he needs what I cannot give him. So I feel like we're all just the biggest embarassment on the family and the biggest
embarrassment to the town we live in, everyone has such normal lives around us. We actually need services but Gordon Campbell's government cut them
unless literally in a wheel chair. But any way, my own heart doesnt stay peaceful when the kids are acting up, and due to the limits on them they act
up in the house alot.
I keep reading about how terrible or sinful or bad humans are, and from a position of limited health and mobility, and having to turn down kids on
the things they need often, I watch mothers walking their kids to school in the rain, with umbrellas, something I cannot do by the way, and everyone
who has reasonable health, managing busy lives, using skils that are admirable, everyone is so admirable to me. I am in awe of them and their
wonderful abilities, and just see them all doing the best they can and for their families often in less than easy circumstances. I am a witness, due
my health, with more time on my hands, to how wonderful everyone is. How glowing and good and giving and talented, gifted most people are. I have
only admiration and great respect for the humanity around me, and wish to join into the bustle.
Anyone saying bad things about humanity is bearing false testimony against their neighbor IMO, and their darker spots are minor, things that won't
take so much cleaning up, not for most sacrificing their all for their families and still having smiles for strangers.
But there is no point to blame. I always quit and try to give up, but end up with such encouragement, in dreams, something when I'm waking up to
write down, or CME's and visits from Family.
People often emphasize its all about "doing", but i can tell you, its about "yearning" for, doing is only possible for healthy unencumbered people.
And we ALL count. In fact, its not doing as much as "becoming", and some things won't yield unless earth rises or the door opens for something
TMA in his life, I can't share the kind of abuses he has endured, but they've been heart breaking for me to witness and hear about, yet he is so
graceful, stoic, and instead of getting upset and in his family's face, as many would have done, as I would have done, he gracefully and formally
thanks his parents for the meal. Even being yelled at when his father was rough assisting him in the shower, because due to his MD he kept collapsing
and of course he colllapsed again, so his father blamed him and raged at him for a while. He thanked them all for supper, worked in the family
business without even getting a wage most of the time, etc etc.
Zen, calming the waters, trying transmute the energy, not to fast, not to put your body in deprival mode and survival mode so you Higher Self races in
to give you energy. Many connect that way. But to take care of your temple, honor your taste buds within balance, and have the connection not be
Forced like that, but real in that Higher Self, Source, Family connects in because you are striving to hold energies calm even where most would lose
I am learning alot from my young friend in my own circumstance. People often blame others, or even self, when sometimes the tests are on different
Sometimes we're grading the system even. Systems are judged by how those in need are treated, the lack of services for example, the lack of valuing
the needs of the children an putting the options into them and good things they need for healthy, well adjusted self esteems and development.
Sometimes what we think is personal tests, is something that benefits the whole in the end or the society.
Trying to find that inner connection to ourselves and to Source, Higher Power, Prime Creator/Goodness and hold peace, seek, say, well what should I be
learning, how to turn this energy around, to peace.
Its easy for me to cast blame at the active forgetful family members who could be making quite a difference, but have fun things they don't want to
give up, even for a child. But I know its not really good to do that, for they are heart of my heart, and our Higher Selves are probably exchanging
notes right now as we speak, don't want to harm any relationships with anyone, just keep seeking for the lesson, or answer, or peace, just the peace,
to heal everyone.
TMA has been a bit a guide himself lately, in that he found some of these inner calm places and transformed his own experience of his
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