reply to post by JohnySeagull
Yes, you're right. We are ( well, I was ) Catholic and I attended a Catholic church until May 2010.
Than , already at 19 , I had a religious crisis of some sort, and than I started thinking that religions, all of them, don't know much about God and
their ideas are fundamentally wrong.
My father is atheist, another of my brother doesn't attend church anymore like me, my mother still goes.
I believe that universe was created by man. In the future. Virtual reality. Complex story.
But it's not that easy to take away the feeling of guilt when I want to do something I know it's " wrong ".
Of course, there is also the thought, that if I 'd really started smoking and if my parents had found out about that, my life would be over. And I
mean over. Apocalypse. So I didn't even started.
I'm currently 21 and in the middle of a " rebellion period " as I realized some weeks ago.
In fact, I'm going through some major changes in my look, my way of talking and people are telling me I look different. But I guess this is both
related to some novelty of tmz and being young and growing up all together.
I had a very very calm adulescence all the way until now. We are a very conservative family, we have to look " good and clever " because we are known
by everyone in the city.
I was known as the quietest kid in the whole town.
I'm the weird one of the family. I reject their snobism and racism. I adapt to every kind of company, and its strange because my parents gave me a job
in the worst school in town ( because of the people who attend it ) and I adapted to those people.
One of my brothers is already " set up " to become a doctor ( I have the shivers thinking about that ) and I'm a self- learnt writer of books and
movie scripts and songs.
I wrote 7 books, dozens of songs and a movie script. Almost none of these works were read by my family.
My professors did read them.
I stopped attending university because I don't know what to do about that.
So, my mother ordered me to take a job in this school 5 hours a day.This was in the period of big tmz novelty November 2010 to January 2011.
I will also work ( my decision finally ) during summer until August, for a summer school.
In August 2010, just one day after Evasius went away, my parents found out I was hanging out with some badly known individuals younger than me and
that I had a big trouble involving money.
They now control much of my money and they give me not more than 5 euros every 2 weeks.
Anyway, I give lessons of history, geography and english to 3 kids, so that I can receive some money. My parents don't even know about this.
Sometimes I 'm out of the house for 5 hours in the afternoon and they try asking me where I was. I don't tell them the truth because I know they would
find a way to make me stop giving lessons to those kids.
Not their decision, get it?
I changed all my friendships in the period starting by October 2010. But sometimes I still find out that my parents follow me while I hang out with
friends. They follow me, At 21. Pure paranoia.
I have now a life much more private... They don't know my friends ( those are good ones anyway, I'm not in trouble ) and I figured out how to go out
where I know I won't find them staring at me and my friends while they hang out.
Luckily, both my parents work almost the whole day, so I can be a little more free to have my own life and not one dictated by them.
I choose my friends and my way of life, at least now. They know, and they are not too much happy, because its not what they chose, but I know how to
make myself listened...
One of my brothers has the same 4 friends he chose at age 6, he's now 18, and attends the same best high school of the city that I attended. For 3
years he had all the best marks, now the marks are low.
My parents focus their " lectures" on him, the same way they did on me for 5 whole years...
edit on 9-4-2011 by Zagari because: (no reason given)