posted on Jun, 4 2009 @ 08:54 PM
How come some people have these experinces and others don't?
Is there a costumer service line I should call?
Yeah I am just kidding, I just in a sick twisted way feel jealous of people who had these really interesting near death experiences.
I had two, well at least came near death just didn't experience anything.
The first time, all I can remember before my brain shut down was the people around me, calling out medications and procedures and that huge white
light that hangs above the operating room table, the beeping of machines and clinking of metal, and pain, lots and lots of pain.
I was just waking up from a 23 hour long operation and my heart started to fail and I had a reaction to a medication they gave me to wake up.
The next thing I knew I was waking up in the ICU that night.
Then the next one I had was, I was walking down the street and started to feel faint and everything became blurry and bright but crystal clear at the
same time I then woke up four days later in ICU again this was due to a severe infection that went to my heart.
The first time I was pronounced dead, the 2nd time I just came really close to it.
Complete amnesia of both experiences, I don't even think the dope from my brain could produce enough euphoria to cause me to embrace death.
hese things all weren't scary or enlightening to me because nothing really happened, and whatever did happen I don't remember.
BUT something that I had recently that was terrifying and is similiar that happened is, I had been having a drastic change in my neurological status
for a few days rapidly progressing symptoms .
I was sitting in the chair next to my mom while she was on the phone with my neurosurgeon her back was to me all a sudden i fell backwards my eyes
were wide open, i heard a loud beeping noise like the IV's make in a hospital and a buzzing sound my entire body felt as if it were vibrating ( it
was very much like the sleep paraylisis I have often, but worse because it was real.) my mind was clear as day I knew saw felt and herd everything
going on around me but I could not move I thought to myself "this is it, i'm dying if I don't want to die i need to calm down" then I became very
calm and just laid there my mom started to speak to me and when she saw me she freaked she came over and moved me and as soon as she moved me, I could
I JUST found out yesterday WHY this happened YESTERDAY! (the hospital kept me for one night and sent me home ugh..) anyway what it was caused by is
that since I was born with a mild form of spina bifida and having a series of tethered spinal cords it caused me to have what is called a Chiari
Malformation where my brain is lower then most peoples the tonsils of my brain are down between the bones and what happend was the way I was sitting
compressed my brain stem against the back of my skull causing me to have full body paresis
and then when my mom moved me it un compressed it.
I'm scared to death it's going to happen again, I'm pretty much just scared crapless in general as this is probably going to lead to surgery and
it's just not pretty symptoms that go along with this defect, but that experience was more like death then the real death experiences and more like
death on different levels, like death of an era in my life that was carefree death of being able to have a good nights sleep without the worry of if
I'm going to wake up in the morning or being over obsessed with how I lay down, but I'm dealing with it because that's no way to live and at least
from the other experiences I know that for me, death will come and I probably won't know or feel a thing.
I wish I could find some type of enlightenment or comfort in this like some can, but I love my life too much and am not ready to leave this world yet,
some people complain about how the world is changing and they'd rather be dead then live in this world and blah blah blah, but there's just so much
of life I have no been able to experience from being sick since I was a child that I want to feel live taste hear see land love, I desire to have
these experiences so badly that the lesser things (to me) like the economy/who's the president/OMG THE NWO, could never, would never come in the way
of my want and need to live this life I have today. /Rant.
It's really interesting though the different types of experience's people have when it comes down to it, I feel a lot of it comes down to the
chemicals in the brain and under lying religious/spiritual beliefs that are hidden in a persons subconscious and.
This is hard to explain so don't fault me if this hard to follow but these are the common themes I've seen on the effects of people having a near
death experience -
People who are highly religious have no lack of faith see God/Their religious Idol. Making them right, their faith stronger.
People who have doubt about religions but still say they are believers see no God. Making "them wake up"
People who are desperate to believe in God/Religion/Spirituality but will not say they are believers due to holding a grudge against it due to life
circumstances will see a God/Have a spiritual experience making them "enlightened".
People who are into metaphysics will have an Astral OBE type of experience.
Making them right, making their belief system stronger.
I don't think any of these experiences express or show what is truly "on the other side" but more so confirm a persons own sub conscious and
conscious belief system.
That's just my opinion and I have no problem accepting others opinions and so on.
Oh and I hope that my opinion doesn't offend anyone, I feel that these experiences/the after effects belong to the people who have them and the only
person who can tell them what they mean are the people who had them, no one has the right to take away from those experiences and try to change it for
the person who had it.
That's why these experiences are personal.
[edit on 4-6-2009 by pop_science]