conscious Oobe....It's Real!!, page 9

Well, I've been meditating probably an hour a day for the last few weeks and I have not yet been able to astrally project but here's what I can describe and maybe someone can assist me in understanding:

I sit in a nice comfy recliner I have, but my back is straight and my hands rest limply on my thighs. In this position, I can control my breathing and after 45 mins or so, I enter what feels like an Alpha state. It's a separation from my body. For example, I will lose sensation of my fingertips against my leg. Also, my breathing and limbic functions become automatic, and I feel as if I am floating 'inside' myself, so to speak.

Getting out, however, has been more challenging.

Recently I decided to just think about geometric shapes as this is pleasurable to me and is usually the hypnogogic imagery I prefer when falling asleep. When I visualize waveforms or a single point from which a waveform emanates, I achieve a distinct loosening of what I guess is my astral body. I still can't get out, tho'. I just sit there and can sense a distinct 'inflation' of myself. It feels weird but I do not know how to 'move'. I focus on my amygdyla inside my skull and I can definately feel it click forward and I feel increased activity in the frontal lobes. I feel like a rocket poised on the launch pad but I don't know how to trigger lift-off.

I also sometimes have felt a weird sensation of being stretched laterally, like as if I was a piece of taffy and was being pulled from the front and the back at the same time. Curiously, when I felt this recently, I also sensed a man and a woman about fifteen feet to my left who were smiling and seemed to want to encourage me to project. I have no idea who that couple was, but that image popped into my head very clearly before I lost them.

Recently I felt really close. I had decided to visualize my astral hands manipulating an object as some have recommended. I chose a tennis ball because they are easy to visualize. I then imagined that the tennis ball was being pulled upward and my astral hands were holding onto it. I felt a distinct pulling sensation, but it seems to break down in my shoulders. My hands grip the ball and my arms follow, by my torso does not want to release. Weird, eh?

QUESTIONS:

What's the longest you have stayed in a meditative state in an attempt to project? Did you find that at the third hour you were closer than at the first hour?

Is it 'cheating' if I am using my memory to visualize myself? For example, I am sitting there in my chair, and my mind says, "Well heck, if you want to be on the other side of the room and looking at yourself, then just imagine it by building up a picture in your mind of you sitting in this chair." I will then do so, remembering the color of my clothes, the look of the room, etc. I can build up a very clear picture of me sitting in the chair and as if I am standing across the room, but I feel like I am cheating by using my memory. I'm not 'seeing' it so much as I am 'building' it. Does this make sense? Is there anything to be gained from this action?

Thanks for any suggestions.

[edit on 11-2-2005 by smallpeeps]