posted on Jun, 1 2009 @ 06:30 PM
What does that mean to me? When I was young, those I thought were mature was anyone a few years older than me. Something I always wanted to be. I
thought that people who were older had more figured out, more under control, more freedom.
I thought it would be great to be "older" at almost every point in my life.
I barely remember the people in the classes below me at school, but I paid close attention to those ahead of me. Looking for clues, watching behavior.
Maturity meant they had more experience, more intelligence, had discovered more secrets. I wanted that. I respected that. But all the while I never
really lived my childhood. My "parents" where so darned interesting that I watched them, and followed them, and lost track of my own desires. I got
I remember that I couldn't wait to get my license so that I could be free to roam about.
Now at 43, I want the freedom to stay home away from the craziness I see. I would love to travel, but it isn't the same world it used to be. It is
less inviting out there a lot of times.
Maturity to me today means that they have most things under control, have more freedom because the responsibilities are taken care of, and have more
things figured out, especially what is important and what isn't. A person that accepts enough that they are content and happy most days. Maturity in
action is responsibility, self responsibility, that the ability to act like a child is done because it is fun, not because it is an excuse not to take
that responsibility. I have been very immature and childish for most of my life, while being responsible for as much as I could. But the feeling of
being self responsible was not there. I felt dependent, without control, and clueless most days. I was unable to be self sufficient and saw that as a
lack of personal freedom.
Now to be mature is a goal that I strive for in which I can say what I think, do what I want to do, and not be worried that my parents, or peers will
somehow be able to punish me for it. Self responsible in my choices. To be self sufficient enough to provide my basic needs for my self and those I
love. To be responsible yet still maintain my freedoms.