posted on Jul, 26 2010 @ 06:30 PM
I dreamed I was shot and killed last night. It was non-lucid and I was totally sold on it being real life. A man and I ended up in eachother's
faces with guns pointed at eachother. I realized it was a misunderstanding. I had the better gun, it was like a sub-machine gun high calibre and he
had a pistol. If we both started shooting he would definetly die and I'd have a small chance to live (from a laymans perspective? lol)
I realize it's a misunderstanding because I know him and give him the gun and my advantage. Seconds later he shoots me in what I think was my liver
with his pistol, and says "Sorry, you should have shot me."
I am sitting up on the floor knowing I'm going to die, it hurts in a certain way, but not very bad. This doesn't make me go lucid, I "justified"
the lack of pain thinking that my body had shut out the pain because the last moments of my life would be too important to focus on the pain. I think
to myself, "There are worse ways to die, this isn't all bad and I wont be to blame."
The man stands above me and I begin to tell him to let me forgive him. I reach up and manage to grab his arms as I do this and he keeps the pistol
pointed at me. He settles to the ground sitting in front of me. I don't care what he's going to do I'm going to die anyway. He says, "I don't
think you should (forgive me), that makes it seem like you are more interested in leaving heaven, than leaving earth." I argued back at him that I
was forgiving him no matter what he said, and that's the final thing I will say on the matter as it's about to be lights out anyway.
Then I closed my eyes, amazed at how peacefully I was handling my death. I really thought this was it, that I was a goner.
Then I woke up in my bed. I was mildly relieved, I had accepted death so it wasn't like a huge victory - I hope that makes sense. If I of course
had gone kicking and screaming, then waking up would have been the best feeling in the world. But this was more nonchalant, whatever happens
EDIT: I don't think I've truly "Accepted death." Death in a dream would be easier to accept - the dream body does not have adrenaline and all
those anxiety producing chemicals in it, but I thought the dream was very interesting - of course death would not be so bad probably if there wasn't
the pain and the body's instinctive reaction to go into panic mode. Maybe that's the lesson of the dream.
[edit on 26-7-2010 by Novise]