posted on May, 19 2009 @ 05:43 PM
Hey all, wasn't sure where I'd post this. So in advance, sorry.
Here's my story.
I'm Norwegian. Moved to the states at a very young age. I lived the majority of my short life in the states. All my schooling was back in the
states, my first girlfriend, my first motorcycle and all the other life experiences you'd have, was back in the states.
I came back to Norway a few years ago in hopes to go to become an Architect. (Schooling here is free since we're socialists.)
That of course fell through. I was accepted and had plans, but things happened. I met a girl, fell in love, had a child. We lasted for about four
years then it ended. Our relationship was far from perfect, in fact, it was abusive.
Since that time, I've had nerve problems, get really nervous in arguments, have a big self esteem issue and other things left over from that
I guess what I'm trying to say is, that it feels like everyone else is more valuable, more important then me. I'm not a freak of nature, I behave
some what normally socially. (Don't like parties any more because of my nerves.)
Why am I in this rut? I've been this way for about three-four years now. The rut I'm talking about is of course my feeling of inadequacy. I've
not been able to have a relationship, I feel like no one would want someone like me, like I'm a defect.
I don't have that many friends, mainly because I find making friends here in Norway to be difficult. Back in the states, I could start up a
conversation with the guy filling gas next to me and leave fully tanked and with a new friend. Not so here. (Everyone here is so conservative when it
comes to new people.)
I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I just needed to post something.