reply to post by just_another_yourself
(written after most of my reply)
..... I should go back further, I was a vivid daydreamer up untill the age of about 6, with a near photographic memory that I still have now. I lost
the ability to daydream, as so many do. I guess those experiences as a small boy, were always my reason for believing that the mind was the greatest
power in the universe. Until my early 20's I never believed in god or religion. (ok.. so this takes us to the middle 20's)
I started with candle focus, sitting on a pillow, legs crossed and index or middle finger touching. Trying to quiet my mind. Doing this I never
reached anything but (I feel like a nut right now). I had done that off and on for a few years, mostly during and after my many trips to the far
I admired the mental state of the Chinese people so much being there. 10 times the population density, with less gridlock, less agression, more human
awarness, thoughtfulness. This led to the beginning stages of enlightment.
My business trips ended late 2005 with a 7 month stay in Kaohsuing Taiwan. During that last visit, I was attacked by an entity, the Succubus I guess,
which I had no real knowledge of before it happened. Twice pinned to my bed, while awakening from sleep. The signs were all around me in the room
later I recollected, It had such an affect on me, I actually moved during that 7 month stay. This experience opened my eyes to the spirit world.
Here we are, 2009, and a whole bunch has changed in my life. I am purely using sound techniques now, mostly because I had failed the normal way. The
second night I put the headphones on, I felt the sensation that I was about to float right out of my body. I have been stuck there ever since,
because I am too afraid to let go. I can get there quite quickly, and very repetitively now.
I have always felt (not rationally thought) that ascension was my entire life's goal, and that the comming events to unfold, I had a major role in.
I broke up with a girlfriend of 8 years over me telling her, I don't need anything in this world, well she wanted stability, a family, ect.... Maybe
unrelated, but it makes quite a bit of sense to me now. I am free of children, responsibility, and my only real concern is the future of mankind.
It is pretty crazy to feel this way.... Yah, for sure.
Enough about how I got here, the answer to your question is that I lay down, in the most comfortable position to me, legs crossed, and arms crossed
one hand over the other on my chest, like a vampire I guess, headphones on, eyes closed. I try to think of nothing, focus on the sounds, and slightly
push my eyes up and focus inbetween my eyebrows. I focus on the blackness and what seems to me is molecules of light that exist within my closed
eyes, or stars being born inside my eyelids. After about 10-15 minute intervals. I have to briskly open my eyes, It feels like my body loses
gravity. This is when I get scared. I have never been on any substance anytime near or during these experiences.
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