reply to post by ashflash
Thanks for the reply. I need to re-read, (probably several times) to digest. I guess this is a 'doozy' for me
Rome wasn’t built in a day my friend. It takes time to digest and appreciate life’s mysteries. I am just now learning to like broccoli, I imagine
should ever come the day I have figured out cauliflower and Brussels Sprouts I truly will have mastered everything this world can throw at me!
So many people are experiencing oddities, that I assume to be paranormal; my self included. What I find is I want more and I want it now, (not
material.) Then you get people who have some kind of paranormal experience and it freaks them out and they don't want it to happen again. Why is
It was a couple years between the first time I worked up the nerve to taste asparagus, and to try it again. Life is a constant process of really
letting go. In other words a process of grieving and its 7 varied states on the road to acceptance. It is of course the illusion of things that people
are always grieving for and letting go…I thought she would love me forever, I thought that horse would win, I can’t believe our government would
do that, I can’t believe I saw or heard that etc., etc., etc. In the end of the process people let go of their life on this plane of existence
What you want to gain is in as many ways as illusionary as what they don’t want to let go of. The difference is you as a seer and one who wants to
see imagines what could be. They on the other hand imagine what they see should and are supposed to be. No one quite sees what they would like to see,
and each takes a different path in attempting to manifest it with the knowledge and skills and way they have been taught and come to learn as being
‘valid’ for their temporal state.
Every now and then some young baby then toddler will not say a word until they can speak a complete sentence. Every now and then some young baby or
toddler won’t ever crawl an inch before they suddenly one day stand up and begin to walk.
Most everyone takes things at their natural speed, even if those rare examples are their natural speed. Each step though is an exercise and process in
of letting go and saying goodbye to the last. That’s the never ending process of letting go, accompanied by the never ending process of grief.
Surely if the powers that be deem a person ready for such an experience, then why do they get freaked by it.
Hansel and Gretel left a trail of breadcrumbs while traversing deep into the forest to find their way back. They ended up in a witch’s oven. The
birds and squirrels had no doubt eaten the breadcrumbs anyway.
People love to go places, and they love to do it as a vacation, and then they love to go back home. Sometimes you realize once at or shortly after
leaving your destination home is no longer there, or the safe comfortable neatly kept and defined place you had previously imagined and thought it to
Hansel and Gretel kind of freaked in that witch’s oven and don’t you know it they didn’t stay very long before they figured out a way to move
You see my friend the witch was having some binge/purge problems of her own that the universe was helping her to move beyond, even though she was
quite upset about missing supper that evening.
The witch ultimately had no choice but to go hungry, and Hansel and Gretel ultimately had no choice but to accept that while cute in their own blonde
hair blue eyed Germanic way, they still made for tasty and hearty fare for others.
The universe is more intelligent than its individual parts in it’s sum total and it takes the clever and not so clever a journey of experience and
learning through trial by error to understand the codependent roles of slave and Master are interchangeable and represent the duality of earthly
I totally agree that our subconscious mind know all the answers already, but I find it frustrating that answers don't come when I'm screaming
silently, I can handle this. And I really feel that I can!
I am kind of embarrassed to say I almost enjoyed Barbara Streisand’s “Feelings” may the ghost of Led Zeppelin’s John Bonham strike me dead!
Obi On Kanobe would tell you to search your feelings Luke!
There are other feelings going on inside there too. Feelings and thoughts you have yet to Master. The Mastery of which is letting go of them. The
Master is only a Master for one reason, he wants for nothing. He has let go, his destination becomes less important than how he travels and he travels
light and carries no load. It is not that he is lazy, or can’t carry it, but you can’t take it with you when you go. Ultimately ideally we would
all like to carry something with us when we go. Life is that process of learning to let go. Learning to separate each and every feeling about each and
everything you don’t want to let go of, and realizing that through want, that it is and of itself a process of acquisition that will if realized
only increase your load, you can over time, identify why each and every disparate and sometimes conflicted feelings you have exist, from what drama or
trauma or event they emanate from in your life and existence and then inquire as to why you ‘want’ to retain them, and what you hope to gain by
There are a few keys to the door that have to be unlocked in sequence, and in rapid succession, but the first key is Mastery over oneself. Master
yourself and then you will be ready and open for more and what comes next.
Like Luke learned too, you will eventually trust in your feelings through that process and eliminate the conflict within you so you can see and hear
and feel more, and pick up a load to help another with from time to time and still be able to wisely, compassionately and lovingly let it go when the
time comes. Most of the feelings holding you back come from having not been able to lay down loads, long gone or abandoned in a wise, compassionate
loving way, and those specters of what was loved and lost, as well as those dreams of what you hope to gain haunt you and have lives of their own you
have to share.
The Master wants for nothing, and when a pupil is ready, whether they think or imagine it, want one or not, a Master does truly appear.
I don't consider my self special, pretty boring really, but it's like I've been thrown a juicy tit-bit, took it in my stride and I'm waiting for
I don’t…is a negative…consider…is to ponder…my…is a focus on yourself linked to want…self…is your perception of who you are and your
identity…pretty…is love and something to be admired because of it’s beauty…boring…is that emptiness that reminds of what we do not have and
want that our desires and wants are born of for lack of acceptance…really…is a qualifier to still ponder and consider…but…is a complete
reversal of course…it’s…definitively defines…like…though is just a facsimile a fraudulent copy or imitation…I’ve…is the ego of self we
are all stuck on…been…a love and desire for the past and the illusion of what once was…thrown…a seemingly random act involving the sudden
appearance of something…a…a lamentation of the singular self…juicy…something copious and full of robust feeling and sensation…tit-bit…a
delicate morsel much like the Witch imagined Hansel and Gretel to be…took…an act of acquisition typically referring to ones guilt of having not
paid for it or acquired it in an appropriately accepted manner that leads to guilt…in…the inclusion into the kingdom of your illusion and
ego…my…a load you imagine you own even though you can’t take it with you when you go…stride…how your ego perceives your progress of
movement…and…the ego wants and desires more…I’m…ego and the illusion of your identity….waiting…the stubborn desire and insistence for
something…for…an imagined illusionary and hoped to be realized purpose…another…a non existent replica of the illusion of what was and can
never be again.
Now you just asked a typical, rather straight forward question, and explained yourself rather nicely in the process…but when you break it down you
begin to see the depth of the illusion as you zig one way, then zag another, stop to contemplate, move tentatively on and zig one way and then
another…stopping to grieve and lament here and there, mixing your feelings as ego grows and then diminishes based on a series of illusions and
desires, and fears, uncertainty, and reluctance.
I see another right there for you in that! I bet as you seek clarity on each of those things you just have identified you will probably be ready for
something, it just won’t likely be the something you want, exactly when you want it, but it will be something some Master of the Universe knows that
you need to lighten your load and travel on a bit further.
We don’t always get what we want; we do though get what we need.
Here is a little hint; the Christian G-d is self admittedly Vein, Vengeful and Jealous.
Those are the feelings humans are most fraught with, confused and stymied by.
What am I doing wrong?
I don’t believe you are doing anything wrong, and can do no wrong, you are simply doing what is right on your path to letting go, dealing with your
grief and learning to accept, in the process of learning everything you want and desire is illusionary and therefore a rather worthless acquisition
for those desiring something tangible, but nonetheless a logical conclusion and desire for someone who can’t take it with them when they go anyway.
Don’t feel bad, I like the illusion too. After all it’s free! You want to escape the illusion but…it’s your illusion. It won’t let go until
you do. There is no tossing a coin trying to trick it into going first, though I am not sure if it can or will play you rock paper scissors.