posted on May, 3 2009 @ 07:41 AM
I hate the world as well. I was surprised to learn that I am apparently supposed to hate the world. I was like, but everyone else says its wrong to
hate the world? Then it finally dawned on me that if hating the world was what I was supposed to do then obviously there were a lot more people out
there with my sentiments than I realized.
Why are we “supposed” to hate the world?
Its actually a Catholic Christian idea, go figure that. We, are apparently from God, made in his own image. As such, it makes sense that whenever we
are apart from him then we suffer a sense of loss and a feeling of being lost. “Our souls will never rest until they rest in thee oh Lord” is what
I think it says. It made sense when it was presented to me that way.
The world is full of evil and deceit, this is very true. The teenage years are very formative. I think it is because they are the first years where
one grows up from the toys and play time enough to see the world and the people in it as more of what they really are then just what was always
perceived. We find out that some people don’t like us. We find out that some people who said that they did only wanted to use us. Then of course, we
find out many other truths about other people such as these. Some of us, sadly, find out about more other evils than can be possibly imagined.
Sometimes, when I think of how I hate the world, I remember the story of a boy who was locked in a cage his entire life. He was stolen I think from
the hospital as an infant and locked in a cage until chance circumstances enabled law enforcement to stumble upon his case. At 16 years of age he was
release from his life long prison and left to attempt to find his way again in the world. I can’t really say again though because in his case he was
being set free for the first time. He was constantly abused in the cage, and almost never let out of it. It is one of the saddest things that I have
ever even heard of, but never the less, it was true.
The evils of this world are sometimes too horrible to imagine. Sometimes when I hate the world it makes me think of this boy and I get the notion to
fight evil wherever I find it. I get the notion to join law enforcement or some other crusading organization and lose myself in the struggle against
the world that I hate so much. Perhaps, in my own way, this is what I do from day to day. Perhaps, some day, I will do more.
But I don’t hate myself anymore. Knowing that I am supposed to hate this evil filled world does make me feel better. It’s the evil people who
choose to live with blinders on who always told me otherwise. It’s the evil people of this world who want to poke their heads in the sand and lie
and ignore the evils around then that tell me that it is wrong to hate the world. But I know that they are wrong, and that so long as great evil
exists in the world I will hate it. I know that as long as I am separated from whence I was created, from God, I will always hate this prison of a
For that’s where we really are you know, in a prison. A prison of lies, deceit, hurt, and evil. A prison who’s warden is gravity and who’s bars
are made of stars, too far away to break or bend. And so, we remain prisoners on this world. Suffer we must our cell mates.
And then, my thoughts once again return to the boy who lived his whole life in a cage until he was sixteen and I realize that even in this prison
world that we all exist in, life is still worse for many others than it is for me. For at least I am not in the lowest part of the dungeon. And at
least I still know that I am in prison.
I hope my ranting gives you comfort of some kind. I hope that even though we both are in the prison world that you will somehow make the choice that I
have and still in some way fight for what is right. I hope that you remember that you are from God and to God it is that you should place your hope.
For the universal truth of the dungeon of this world is that it, by the grace of God, cannot last forever. And some day, if we do what we should, a
truly better place will GOD place us next.