Originally posted by Apollo7
reply to post by julia53
Lesson Learned..whatever answers I was looking for up there...I give up looking..things were worse on the reservation than here.
I just went through 2 weeks of beyond hell!! If the Aliens are coming..I hope they show up everywhere...
Back to work work and sleep sleep..like a robot
Apollo when I finally gave up is when I starting growing.
Take a breath and find a moment to enjoy every moment.
I stood knee deep in wet grass.
Soaked to the bone.
I had worked for days on end with no brakes.
We were working 12 hour plus days.
I was driving 45 miles one way to work in top of the work hours.
I was looking with all my effort to find truths and proof of the abductions that were happening to me.
All my being was spent in the effort.
Then I went limp.
Became water so to say.
I started just observing.
I started taking note of things that seamed quite out of place,
I found that most could be explained.
A percentage could not.
I stood there in the pouring rain fixing a nearby telephone pedestal.
When i opened it i had the sense that - "This is it."
It was confirmed with I lifted the cover to find my assigned pair open for 1/4 inch.
But due to the clouds and the torrent of rain,
The enclosure was dark enough that i could literally see it arching across the gap in the wire bright blue white.
I knew i would be shocked to cut it off with my soaked boots on.
I resigned myself to my fate - I grabbed it cut it.
My arm took the brunt of the shock cramping from the 300 volt carrier .
I soon had the customer spliced and back in service.
I called them from my cell phone standing in the tall grass in the pouring rain.
The rain then finally breached the last dry thing that was left on me.
My rear end.
It had soaked threw the last dry part of my 3 layers of clothing.
My arms were coated in wire isolation gel. We call it icky pick.(Vasoline like)
I just stood there.
Thinking it could not get any worse.
I looked up to see the rain being slowly replaced by snow flakes.
That was the last straw.
After a tirade of cuss words.
I stood there exhausted, wet and cramping, hurting every where.
Then it hit me.
I was distracted by my circumstances.
What was good about where I was right now.
I stood there looking at the woods that surrounded me.
Eha - Pretty.... Hmm what else am I missing?
I started to take a step towards the road.
I froze mid stride.
I was about to step on a baby deer (Fawn) curdled in the grass just below my foot.
I had parked my Van and set the flasher,
I had placed my road cones talking loudly to my self the entire time.
I had flushed around looking for the pedestal.
I had fixed my customer problem.
I had called my customer on my Cell phone.
Then I had stood there grumbling at the Rain/ Snow /Sleet.
Never even noticing what was right at my feet.
That's a point in my life that I learned to be quiet.
To take 15 second pauses.
To take note what is really going on around me.
That quiet allowed me to find my answers.
To find my real questions.
Ones that could be answered.
If I paid attention..
The white trees that I talked about.
The animals that were out of place.
The odd pause in someones speech that allowed me to avoid catastrophic events.
The road sigh that was blocking my view.
If I had not paused to see what I was trying so hard to find I would have missed them all.
My answers many times were not what I wanted to find but were the truth however.
Water flows around stones, trees, obstacle's.
The obstacles maybe there to give us time to notice something.
Or just pause us so we will be in the right place at the right time later.
It might just give us the time we need to gather our thoughts.
Enough water although can move any obstacle.
Mount Saint Helons was blown apart by water.
Well -- Been there done that....
I hope you are able to define what you need.
So you can ask for it....
Take your time & pick your fights.
If you voice them here maybe we all can help you find your path.
Remember help others along the way.
My tenders have always grumbled to me about my habit of wakening others.
My you be so gifted.
Strive to be there at the right time.
With the right words to make the path easier for others.
The truth will follow.....