reply to post by happinness
Getting help when you are hanging on your finger nails is the best thing you can do.
I was a computer professional in the 1980's
A fundamentalist Baptist, Husband &. Daddy.
Not a problem in the world.
I drove hundreds of miles from customer to customer in South West Michigan USA.
Many people depended on my daily actions to keep there business's rolling smoothly.
My family depended on me.
Out of no where I begin to have flash backs of an event from over a decade ago in the Air Force.
The Flash Backs bacame uncontrollable.
I would be driving and something would trigger a flash back.
Relieving something for the first time in your hanging onto your steering wheel at 70 miles an hour is not something that is safe or desirable.
I have spoke about how I dealt spicificly with it earlier in this Forum.
Some time the desperation of not understanding what is going on is overwhelming.
Tears are part of the path.
It dose get better.
You can make it threw this.
If you find a Dr or organization that helps.you what dose it matter what their name of position is.
Find what or who works for you and keep trudging along.
Don't make any impulsive decisions, things have a way of working themselves out.
I talked to my wife.
Luckily she was with me when during the abduction experience that I was starting to remember more of.
If it ends up being an abduction, or any other experience that ends up being the source of your current problems.
Give it time to work itself out.
We all want our answers right now.
But it takes time to heal physically and mentally.
2 years from now you will have a completely different prospective on your experience.
Another 10 years your thoughts about what you are going threw right now
will have even a more new-on-ced (can't find in spell check) prospective.
The prospective that this is overwhelming will pass.
And that you will be the better for it in the long run.
The truth is empowering.
I look forward to hearing about your progress and experiences.
Keep talking don't wall it up.