posted on Apr, 22 2009 @ 09:55 AM
A snippet of my past ...
I was sharing a house with a guy who was into witchcraft. He had books, LOTS of books, about witchcraft and spells and was into some pretty dark
I on the other hand wasn't into that stuff, I wasn't into anything, but as a nightly routine I would say my prayers in my head, as my grandmother
had taught me as a young boy.
I awoke one night and as I turned around in bed I found myself floating looking at myself asleep. Before I could fully comprehend what was happening,
out of the corner of my eye I seen a small black shadow about the size of a tennis ball on the wall to my right.
Very quickly this shadowy thing got larger and in an instant I was literally pulled into it.
In an instant I was not on the earth or in this dimension, or whatever you want to call it. Its hard to explain, but I knew for a 100% certainty I was
no longer in the world. It was a knowing, nothing more can be added to that, it was just fact, and I knew it.
The place I was in was utter darkness. This is going to sound crazy, and I'll try my best to explain it simply as I can.
This darkness was not empty, not like being in a darkened room, with a feeling of space, air, freedom around you. This darkness was all over me.
Completely engulfed in it. It was suffocating, yet I knew it was endless and eternal.
I know that sounds crazy, but one of the strangest things about this whole experience was the knowing. Its this knowing without doubt, its final and
you know and cant dispute it. Its not like "where am I?" or "How did I get here?" Its this strange knowing that this place is endless and eternal.
Now the bad part.
The darkness is alive. It is the most vile, terrible and scariest thing anyone would never want to encounter. I cannot say strongly enough how utterly
terrified I was. The darkness is not one thing. It is many things. It is alive and filled with unseen things that in an instant started tearing,
scratching, screaming - the screaming ....
If you've ever listened to a recording in reverse - that's some of it, part of it. Its like a thousand voices at once, all mixed up together, a most
haunting and terrible sound. Hissing, teeth sounds, wailing, LOUD is an understatement. Just the noise there alone is terrifying.
But the most horrible was the touching. All over me. In an instant I was attacked. From all over. They were all over me everywhere. Pulling at me,
scratching me, the worst was the bites, they REALLY hurt and I mean pain!
You cant run, there is no space, they are on you, and you are a part of them.
This will sound crazy but I am certain a short amount of time spent there and you become one of them. Simply from losing your mind. That's the best
way to describe 'them' - being surround and attacked by things that have lost their minds. Like a chain reaction, all groping and tearing at each
other in the darkness.
Imagine a mass panic, thousands of people gone insane confined to a small space - but see, that's not it. Its not a small place, you are no longer a
body in that sense. You are a part of this darkness. I know it doesn't make sense, but that's what it is. Please understand this, there is NOTHING
to see there. Complete and utter darkness. There is nothing but terror, fear and pain. There is NO LIGHT!
When I say there is no light, I don't just mean light to see with. Its so much more than that. There is no light. Do you understand what that means?
I wish I could explain what that means, but there is no light in that darkness, none whatsoever. I cant explain it and its frustrating, but light is
so much more than what we see with. I know that now. The light, of which we never comprehend in our lifetime is not there, and you will know it. All I
can say on that is you are separated from the light. And believe me, it is a most terrible thing to know.
In a flash I was floating above myself again. I reached out and grabbed my body by the shoulders and pulled myself towards myself.
I awoke and could not scream, I tried. I could not speak and I could not move. My mouth was open and I tried to yell, but I was frozen in shock.
It took some time to get over. I literally shook and cried for hours afterward.
I was only in the darkness for a few seconds ....