posted on Apr, 19 2009 @ 01:05 PM
I'll start out by saying that I was not raised in any church, and have not spent a large amount of time researching religious subjects since my
childhood. I do not attend a church, or claim to be a Christian or any other religious denomination. Having said that, I did read The Bible
cover-to-cover when I was 8, and spent much time researching and discussing what I'd read with local pastors and preachers of many denominations.
I found the Old Testament to be vile and horrifying, and of course it was one of those huge thick Bibles riddled with classical paintings that can
feel like a stain on your brain for years to come.
Then I read the New Testament, was overjoyed by the teachings and messages of Christ, and was very inspired.
Then I read Revelations and found it to also be vile and horrifying.
Now to my original question; Without many previous outside influences, the strong message that I got at 8 years old from reading the New Testament was
that God has granted us free will, meaning God will not help or hinder in a tangible, physical way, because God is not of the physical world,
but will instead provide the strength and courage to face what will happen; those attributes belonging to the spirit.
So, why do so many followers of Christ believe in modern divine-intervention, thinking that God will heal, provide, protect, etc? How could one even
have such beliefs without feeling massive amounts of guilt? Who would want to be favored by God over sick and starving children across the world? Why
would God provide anything for someone, who by world standards, had lived an incredibly privileged and comfortable life? I even hear people praying to
God to allow them to win money at a Casino!
I hear people say "I KNOW God answered my prayers, I didn't have anything to feed my kids, I prayed on it, and God provided!" Well, what about sick
and starving children the world over, would God really need YOU to pray for them, to feel the need to intervene and provide? It just makes NO sense,
and seems to be the antithesis of what Christianity seems to be based on - spiritual strength to face and triumph over the troubles and trials of the
physical world, and to share that strength and it's physical results with others to create a better world, full of strong spirits.
Who would want to ask themselves; "Why did God let this happen?" Why would God help or hinder in a physical, tangible way - wouldn't doing so at
all to be tantamount to a complete destruction of free will, ie an end to absolute causation? I believe it to be black and white, all or nothing -
either we have free will and everything in the physical world happens as it well, as a result of cause and effect, or we don't. One intervention of
even the smallest magnitude would create a butterfly effect that would forever change the effect, in essence destroying the free will of man.
Did I get it all wrong? I was pretty young to be pondering these sort of things, but it really felt like the Bible was saying that the kingdom
of God and the physical world only meet in our souls, not our health records, banks accounts, etc.
Please, enlighten me, I have yet to understand or accept the other side of this coin; That we are but puppets and everything is planned, that some are
favored more than others, and that we are to blame for our troubles but not to take credit for our triumphs.
Is there an old, and active conspiracy to make followers of Christ ignore the notion of free will and place their fate in Gods (aka The Church's)
hands? Forgive me if this thread isn't completely coherent, I didn't plan it out or think it through, just sort of let the words flow. It feels like
a conspiracy to hide the true power and meaning of Christianity though, and place all power and therefore blame and credit in the hands of God, the
devil, and The Church.
Edit: I'm only 29 now, so I know that plenty could still happen that could change my mind, but I honestly hope that does not happen. I don't
want to believe in miracles or divine intervention, as I would see that as favoritism, and God-as-Genie wish granting, which I would consider
to be very, very sad and empty.
[edit on 19-4-2009 by maus80]