posted on Jun, 1 2009 @ 09:42 PM
Originally posted by Excitable_Boy
I'm afraid of failure and afraid of success.
We all have problems. Life sucks. Being human sucks. This is a big part of why I truly believe that this isn't all there is. That life here on
earth is hell. I also feel like a loser complaining about this stuff when there are people who are truly living horrible lives every day. Parents
killing their children, people all over the planet starving to death, killing each other, etc. etc.........
EB, I am saddened to hear about what you're going through. Please hear me out, then you can decide if my words are worthy of even manure for your
Before we experience our physical death, we must understand that we face "deaths" everyday. Loss of hair is a death, knowing your may need to stop
running (due to legs or asthma) or having to engage in some other activity instead is a death. The loss of value on your home is a death. The change
in work is a death to the old way of doing business. When a relationship with our spouse has changed, that can be a death. (Although, here I say find
someone who can help one see clearly on the matter of marriage relationships.) Whenever we have to alter our way of thinking is a death of an old
idea. Our dreams do die sometimes. But we can dream new ones.
We cannot change the past, but we can determine our future. We have to ask ourselves, "What's the worst that could happen?" and then many times,
the worst that can happen is not really that bad, or, we have to summon the courage to face the music. You have survived this long. You have slayed
dragons in your life already. Unfortunately, new ones come along. Slaying the fear dragon will help.
You will dream of houses. Then one day, you dream of crossing over a bridge and know you will never go back. Your new life has started.
Meanwhile, stay grounded, so you are not swept away in the tornadoes of Life's horrible things around you, the killings, starvation, etc. Stay
strong. Stay caring, but remember to care for yourself.