posted on Mar, 23 2009 @ 02:21 PM
Thanks so much. I didn't really mean to join a list such as this. Most of the time I don't like writing about these things. It can get me shaky
but it hasn't. I was told by a Paranormal group to write things down as they happened but I just couldn't. It got shaky every time I tried.
Maybe I have a little distance from it at the moment.
I will try to impart more specifics of memories, dream memories and my general impressions of what the little buggers are doing and what I just think
they are up to.
I am skeptical when I hear of people saying they are abductees and remember everything clearly and can quote word for word what was said and also
exactly what was done to them. From my experience it just doesn't work that way. They do try to blank it from our memories for the most part or
distort it so it is all jumbled. Mostly my experiences are in dream form although there have been visions, that I do believe they gave me and at
times they don't control us completely and then we have part memories etc.
But thank you so much. It is not easy talking about these things because I know so many people put us down, think we are crazies etc. I have
actually told only a handful of people. Well up until now but I have not given my name so I guess it is a little easier. I am sure that most
abductees at times believe they are crazy themselves and put a lot of experiences down to a vivid imagination or whatever but then there are the many
little proofs that I guess we all have. Proof to ourselves that is. Probably nothing that would prove anything to anyone else.
I do fear them but I also like them in a strange sort of way. Confusing.