reply to post by xynephadyn
How are you doing?
I've been meaning to talk to you for a while, about I don't know what, but I read your thread just now, and it disturbs me a lot. I'm really
pleased to hear that you are so aware of what this being is, and can tune it out to an extent if you want to. Like you, I'm wondering why it's there
This is very similar to an entity that surrounded me for a good couple of years, and may still be here. At the time, I was running my own shop selling
crystals and so on, doing readings, running mediumship circles, meditation classes....lots of things. Gradually, this energy made itself known to me,
although I didn't really see more than shadows, but it's effect on my customers was awful...long story short here, but in the end I had to close my
shop. I didn't really think it was anything other than a hex that had been placed, (and there were a few potential sources), but nothing I could do
could clear it. At the most it worked for a few hours and then it was back...it made absolutely no difference what I did, and I have protection and
cleansing skills like you wouldn't believe. I talked to a few people about it, and eventually we uncovered that it was an Enochian entity, at which
point most people will mutter something like...oh sugar!...and leave as soon as they can. I have no idea what to do about it either. Professional
paranormal investigators and even exorcists didn't have much luck, and I spoke to some very experienced people.
As for inviting it in...I absolutely did not. Thankfully most of the time I wasn't aware of it, but it showed itself to other people, and there was
one really terrifying incident when an angel therapist who was involved with our mediumship circle was so scared by it that she had to leave. It was
trying to strangle her, or that's what it felt like, but no-one else in the circle noticed anything. I have massive reservations about the current
craze for angel therapy, and how they are "trained". They have no real idea how to protect themselves at all, and will not be told by anyone else
that there might be a more useful way. The manner in which this entity kicked off in her presence kinda proves that she was doing nothing useful to
hold it back. Anyway...that's not really important here...it's a whole other rant.
The few people who did catch a glimpse of what it was and what it wanted said that all they could sense from it was absolute hatred for me and a
desire to really hurt me. I think it did try...on a dry sunny day at 30 miles an hour, quiet country road...by car flipped over into a ditch with no
apparent cause. Fortunately I escaped with nothing more than nettle stings on my hands, but angel therapy lady refused even to talk to me after that
as she though she was going to be next.....
Which leaves me with the question of "why us?" The only thing I can come up with is that as sensitives, mediums, "lightworkers"...(I really
dislike that word!)...we are much more visible in energy terms than the average person in the street. Possible there is a lot of psychic "noise"
around us and lots of interesting things happening that makes them want to stick around. Of course, if we are actively working towards progressing
ourselves and waking other people up along the way, then we will be working against them, if they are on the demonic end of the watcher scale and it
would suit them to make our lives uncomfortable.
I don't know how to deal with this hun...I didn't have much luck getting rid of the one near me, so I don't know how much use I can be to you,
unless it's to tell you that you're not imagining it, it is there, and somewhere, one of us knows how to deal with it.
I also wanted to add, in response to mhinsey, that I have never done drugs of any kind, never even smoked a cigarette, and don't drink. It was
suggested to me that I have all the medical tests done, which I did, and there is nothing physically wrong with me, apart from being 6 inches too
short for my weight. I've seen the therapists, I'm not schizophrenic, I don't have a brain tumour, have never touched anything even remotely
psychotropic, and don't even have fluoride in our private water supply, but you are correct....these things do need to be checked.
[edit on 21-3-2009 by caitlinfae]