For a couple years I would visit the ATS website on a semi-regular basis, weekly or monthly. Curiously I'd venture around the board. I'd find a
couple of nuggets of information and take those back to my husband and few friends for discussion.
Like most of you, I found not a lot of people really wanted to talk about these issues - at least to any length. (NWO, UFO, other lettered topics)
They usually had one opinion, that was it, forget discussion or I have that one friend we all probably have (seen some of these on ATS too) who hears
one word of your topic and BLAZE! they are off and running on their own rant, won't let you get a word in. By the time they are done you're left
with a headach and unvoiced opinions but too exhausted to pursue.
Then the magical day came! My tin foil hat fell off and I no longer had irrational fears of actually joining ATS and becoming a bonefide
member!Infalmatory, what really happened was I had gobbled down every Jim Marrs book and decided I had to speak up, I had something to say - if my
family and friends wouldn't listen to me maybe I could add to the enlightenment that already exists on ATS. This chic has something to say!
My first weeks were filled with fury flying fingertips fueled by caffiene and years of being too quiet, too shy. Pandora had opened her box...and my
mouth. (That didn't sound right togeather did it? lol I'll leave it - you guys know what I really mean-I hope lol) Okay, let's change that from my
mouth to "my voice." Makes more sense anyway, I can't do video so you can't HEAR me lol I digress.
Oh the joy! Oh the happiness of finally having others agree, or even disagree providing a theory perhaps I hadn't known or forgotten. Long long
nights. I'm use to these. Natural nightowl. Before ATS there were game sites and all kinds of internet musings. However, all this thinking was slowly
taking it's toll.... Achy muscles, piles of laundry..
Embarassingly I'll admit to falling into a semi-cult for a week. Just having an open mind and frakin brain fell out. As my natural skeptism
resurfaced and questioning the poster I was then invited via U2U by the OP (not a mod; not even anyone with 1 oz of respect on ats) suggesting I
become a 'teacher' on ATS - um what??!! I can't teach (spirituality) what I don't know. That's dangerous and immoral. They used all the common
salesmen techniques 'you'll receive special treatment' 'this offer won't last forever' 'and if not you then somebody else' I ceased
communication and am still beyond embarassed. Forgive me my friends. I returned to my ATS interest of NWO, UFO, Psychology ect. Kept my arse outta the
grey area for a bit.
Back into my favorite subjects, joy returning. Debating this and that. Then the inevitable happened - someone was mean to me! Gasp! (lol) I noticed
everywhere hate language, mean reply posts, people who just wanted to argue for agrument sakes. I was looking at the 10% of trouble makers and not the
90% who debate the ideas and not the people. My ATS happy bubble popped again. Time for a break.
I went to a movie; found myself looking for NWO symbolism lol I had done this before but, not the extent I couldn't also lose myself in the movie
for a bit. Had some dinner out. Went to the park. Reconnected with the family.
Started some threads which no one replied to or posts that exclaimed "Off Topic Posts" were the haters following me? Paranoia! No worries, I was
please with the threads I started, even if no one noticed. I think it's good to do some research and give back from that which we take so much
Read some threads about fellow ATSers being watched and followed. Psycho, paranoid, honest? Looked out my window. Checked my rear view mirror. Just as
I thought! I'm too insignificant to matter.
I'm now exhausted. Have headaches. Dishes piled high. I've noticed a lot of other ATSers proclaiming how tired they are. Mind control has invaded
ATS! Seriously, my internet usage hasn't wavered - I'm on as much as I have ever been on - but, it's what site I'm on - ATS. Brain on overdrive.
When I'm not here I'm usually reading - at the moment not any fun fiction; more of the same ATS subjects. If I'm not reading, I'm talking about
it. Poor husband
My point here is there seems to be a cycle; as with all things in life and nature. What is the ATSers 'oldtimer' view on this? Even if you're not
an oldtimer, do share this cycle? Be nice, I do have a life and I know all things in balance.
Think tonight I'll kick back with a cold beverage & BSG. :w: Just betcha I'll be here at 1am anyway. I can't quit you guys. lol