I am posting this with hopes that some of you here will have info on what is going on with me. If you know anything about what you're getting ready
to read PLEASE post and let me know
I know there will be skeptics here too, so you all may please post as well, just try to keep it o a minimum if you wish as I am trying to get info on
what is going on with me. Thanks all who post and read.
Well, I have looked around and seen a lot of the site stories, and alot of the responses. People basically calling other people liars. I don't
really care what they think because I know the truth I just don't particularly want to wade through the people trying to debunk a story and the other
people who may not really know what they are talking about. Plus the fact that I have never told anyone my WHOLE story I just don't want to deal
with their reaction.
I understand this may not be what you normally do. But I think your opinions on some of the things that have happened to me would be helpful for
me to understand what may be really happening.
I'll start by telling you the first experience I can remember. Just for you info, I live outside of Knoxville,TN (Go Vols) near the Great Smoky
Mountain National Park. When I was 12 years old and in the 7th grade I attended a basketball game at the middle school, when the game was over around
8:30p my mother arrived to pick me up. We left the school and headed directly home. We lived nearly 12mi. from the school. About six miles into the
trip we were traveling down a fairly popular 2-lane highway, no other cars were in our sight that I can remember (at least not directly in front or
behind us). My mother looked out the window and said "What is that?". I looked out the front windshield and in the sky to the front left of our
vehicle was a craft. I have searched all over the internet and through books over the years to try and find anything that closely resembled this
craft. I have not found a single photo, story or any other depiction of what we saw. She slowed the vehicle down to a near stop and we watched the
craft. After studying the area over the years (I drive by the location nearly everyday) I have to say that the craft was no more than 100yds of the
ground motionless, just hovering. The craft was presumably 2-300 ft in length/ 100ft+/- wide, the sides looked to be 30-35ft tall. It didn't have
any particularly bright individual lights. How can I explain? Imagine being in an airplane and flying over New York City at night. All of the
buildings and lights. Imagine taking a picture of all the bldngs and lights and cutting that picture out to the dimensions I described above. This
would give you a great visual of the craft. You could literally see into it like you were looking between the buildings. We watched it for what
seemed like only a few minutes and drove off. One weird thing happened next. Though my mother and I both new what we had seen was unlike any type of
air vehicle we had seen before, we didn't talk about the incident for 4yrs. Not a single word. What 's even wierder than that is that sometimes I
would think to myself "Ask her when you see her tonight about the incident," and when I would see her it was like the memory was blocked from my
mind. Though a few yrs later while watching a program on ufo's and the like we finally did talk just for a moment. My father and brother were there
and immediately treated us like nuts so we shut up about it.
During the 4 years until we talked about it I think I may have had other experiences, but I am not sure. I had dreams of flying, and not just
flying like on a plane. I had dreams of flying out of the atmosphere and past planets and stars. But during these flights I was on no plane, it
seemed to be me, alone, flying with no assistance. I thought that maybe they were just really cool dreams. I talked about these some with my family
just in regular convo., "You're not going to believe the dream I had!" type of thing. These dreams occurred regularly about every 2-3mnths for
years, in fact I still have them, but with a bit of a different understanding.
This is where it gets wierd for me and I have a bit of a time trying to justify to myself what happened because I know with-out a doubt 100% sure
that I was awake and in my car and lucid. I don't know how else to explain to you that I was as awake and lucid as I am right now typing this. I
had just gotten off work, around12:30a, and was headed home. On my trip home I drive down a 4-lane highway that, during the day, is heavily traveled,
but at night is not as busy as I live in a small town. On the trip, there is a stretch of highway that climbs a hill a couple hundred feet and then
crests and on the other side descends maybe 250-300ft. I had crested the hill when I noticed a wierd light on a craft. It wasn't extremely bright,
but it was obviously a lot smaller than the vessel that I had witnessed years before. It too was only a few hundred feet off the ground. As I drove
down the hill, the light began to intensify. Then about 2/3rds down a yellow beam appeared from the craft and shone on the road directly ahead of me.
It was a bright, bright, bright yellow light with a hint of amber. It appeared to be very thin, maybe only a centimeter thick. It was, however,
very wide. It covered nearly three lanes of traffic and ,again, it was directly (30ft) in front of my car. I couldn't stop, I really barely had
time to react and felt almost no emotion toward the incident. This part makes me feel funny to even type to someone across the country because of the
insecurities I have about the subject. When I drove through the beam I could feel it hit my body. From my feet, up my legs, into my stomach, chest,
and onto my head. I had a nearly unexplainable feeling. I could feel every minute spot that this beam covered. It was a numb, very very very intense
tingling (?) feeling mixed with a different emotion I can best explain by saying, Imagine you're riding a roller coaster and when you come to that
point where you are at the top of the rails and you are just about to begin the descent, the coaster is moving slow, then faster, and faster, then you
go over and you just want to scream because you don't know if it's fun or scary or what. Those two feelings mixed together is what I experienced as
the beam passed over my body. When it reached my head I remained concious, but what happens next makes me, I don't know, let's just say my heart
rate is rising as I type. I could feel my conciousness, not my body, just my conciousness being relieved from my body. I could still see, but no
body. I was traveling up this light. I can remember every little detail. Ascending into the sky a few hundred feet, watching the ground get smaller,
the road, the lights everything getting smaller. This took only a split second and I was inside the craft. The craft inside wasn't very large,
about the size of a middle class home bedroom. I only stayed inside the craft for what seemed a couple seconds. I could see the inside, but it seems
I never stopped moving. How do I explain? I was brought in through the front and exited what seemed like through the bottom. I was back in my car
at the bottom of the hill, in a daze almost. I was still very much coherent, but felt as if I had just awoken. Even more my car had traveled about a
quarter mile while I was outside. I don't understand how it didn't crash. I don't understand any of this! Nothing about my life or my life-style
changed after this event. I didn't tell a soul about this, for obvious reasons of sounding like a lunatic. I went on about my life, every so often
having the flying dreams. The only thing that changed, and I like to think it was me and nothing else, is I seemed to be a little smarter than
before. I was an ok student in school, nothing special, but now I seemed to think clearer and tended to be right a little more often, my thoughts in
my head just seemed to be tighter, if that makes any sense. But again, I like to think that was just me growing up a bit.
I didn't know where to look for answers to what I experienced. I thought about going to a psychiatrist, but was scared about what would be said
or done. I just kept it to myself and kind of stewed on it for years. Everywhere I went I just tried to act normal and fit in. I always felt like,
"Boy, if you only know what'd in my head!" I continued to have these flying dreams and life went on.
I sold real-estate in Gatlinburg, TN throughout my early twenties. I made great money (100-150k yr), and life was generally good. Then as soon
as the job had came it was gone, no more market. I got a job doing hardwood flooring, the money slowed down and so did my life and lifestyle.
Instead of showing property in the day and meeting with clients at night I was laying floor and sanding during the day and watching tv at night. I
began to wonder about all the things I had been experiencing again. But, now I am a little bit older and want answers. I talked to a friend of mine.
An older man that always asserted that the Earth was hollow. I always thought he was crazy, I still don't know. I decided to tell him that I
believe UFO's are real. I did, and instead of looking at me like a loon he said, "I don't believe their real, I know they are." I asked" How
can you be sure, how do you know?" That's when he handed me a Sitchin book, "The 12th PLanet", He said to read it and if I was interested he had
more of them. I thanked him and took the book and read it. It opened my eyes to a lot of different possibilities. Before this I had no idea that
there was actually literature out there that was serious about this type of subject. I finished the book and decided to try and do more research on
the internet about my experiences.
Before when I did research I always fell into the regular UFO phenomena, Roswell and the like. But now I was finding new and more interesting
things. This leads up nearly to the present. It has been a few months now since I started doing more research and found some interesting info. I
found that the type of dreams I have are not wholly uncommon. Using this information I decided to try some new things. I clear my head just before I
go to sleep and think really about nothing, just try to get relaxed. But now I can almost control my dreams completely. I have not really heard of
people "controlling" their dreams, but I can. When I first lay down, I take a deep breath and think a calm thought. I close my eyes and re-vision
my previous dreams. As I am drifting off to sleep there is a moment that I can identify conciously as the moment I am falling to sleep. I can feel
my mind in dream state starting to leave my body. It doesn't really have an absolute feeling, but I'll try to explain. I can feel my mind leaving
my body at my feet, and then my head, it's like I am folding up like a sheet of paper. Imagine laying a piece of plain white paper on a table, now
imagine that each end has a string coming off it. If you lift the strings at both ends and the paper folds like a "U". This is how it feels when I
am leaving. The last part of me to go is in the middle, it is the hardest part to get right. Some times I get stuck there. When that happens it
wakes me up. I can feel myself coming back into my body. I can especially feel it in my head, where it feels like I am being slammed back in. I can
feel the jolt and everything, like riding in a car at 5m.p.h. and hitting a brick wall, it is trully incredible. I have only gotten out a handful of
times, maybe once every couple weeks. But when I do get past the middle part of my body it is incredible. I can go anywhere I want, I can do
anything. I mean I can travel the world in anyplace, places I haven't been before. Then when I awake I can remember the places. I thought I was
going mad when I first got out under control until I looked up a place that I went to called Kure, North Carolina. I went their and flew down the
road and over a pier. No one was there and it was like a Ghost Town. I woke up and remembered. I had never heard of the place, but I was just
there! I looked it up and sure enough there it was. I can leave the planet and fly into space too, though I don't know where I have gone to or the
names. But I can and when I do this there is a time that I am traveling into the sky where I almost stop it's like I can go no further for a second
and then all of the sudden I pass through the atmosphere into space. Lou this is why I am starting to get really wooried about what's going on. Oh
and one time I was trying to leave my body and I was nearly out when suddenly I was jolted back into my body, and by the dood in my room was some sort
of creature. I have read about people with sleep paralysis and they say that they are paralyzed and when they awake they can't move and they feel a
presence in the room. For me, sort of, except this being WAS there! It looked like nothing I had heard of (not grey, or funny man with big ears).
Imagine an e-wok from Star Wars. Now take away the hair, pull a hood around the head, squash the face a little, make the eyes small and round, very
small nose, and the mouth was terrifying. It had like two big teeth that looked more like horns set wide on the top of the mouth, and two similiar
that set wide on the lower mouth. And almost like another set of teeth inside. I saw this creature for about five seconds, I sat up in my bed
without taking my eyes off it, it took a step back and disappeared instantly! I didn't sleep much that night. Lou, this is why I am getting worried,
Everything I ever thought and have been taught is not happening how it was explained. Now that was about a week and a half ago. Afew days later I
was looking on the internet and got directed to Abovetopsecret.com. I typed in "are aliens real" and you can probably guess what came up. After
reading about the first 30 pages or so of that thread and the last few I decided, "if you can talk about your experiences and not feel crazy", I
needed to get in touch with you. I finally found that sleeper is lou baldin and that led me to your blogspot. So I am writing this to you because I
don't think you'll think I am crazy or pass judgement. Also I really want to know what you think about why this is happening to me and if you can
explain anything I have told you. Thank you for any help you can give me. I don't care if you discuss this with people you trust that know your
situation, I am just not ready for this to be on the web. After all it is what is happening to me in my life and people I know read this they would
call me a lunatic and alienate me from most of my friends. Anyways thanks again.