Why does life have to be so cruel when it comes to love?
Last summer, my dad's job had us move over a thousand miles away from where we were living at the time...This whole year at school I have tried to
stay happy, but at times it has been so hard...I just want to move back... I fell in love there, and now that I moved away from him, it hurts so bad.
Im always thinking about the times we were together and the memories from there.
And Im not just sad cause we just moved away, Im used to moving.... like every year, sometimes, several times that year... I was fine with moving,
I'll be 16 in two months. He'll be 17 in four.. I love him with all my heart. Technically, we've been together for almost a year. About 8 of it,
has been long distance.. Within those eight months, we have talked every day, at every moment we've been able to basically. We've commited to each
Ive only got to see him twice since I moved, the first time, for one day about a month after i moved, and the second time, he came for a weekend to
spend Valentines with me. He can't come often because he has to pay his own way here, and his job wont let him take off much time.
It's so hard be so far from him, we spent basically every day together until the day I moved. Its been terrible being away from him like I am.
I know I love him, and I know he loves me.
I want to be with him again more than anything. We will prove all the people who think its not real between us, wrong.
And I know, its gonna be very difficult..it has been... its a struggle at times. But its worth it all.
The distance causes a big problem our relationship though.
Like for instance, when we were together, we NEVER got in a single arguement or
anything, everything was great. Now we get in stupid lil arguments, 95% of the time are about the relationship an distance. But when we're together
again, even though its always a short amount of time, things are perfect again. But when were this far apart for so long, it hurts both of us a
I miss the way he holds me close, how he looks at me and softly smiles, how he playfully flirts with me, how he kisses me, how when he leaves for the
day, my clothes still smell like him.. I miss everything about him.
Like the other day he was talking about how now, he can never see me, touch me, feel my skin, nothing...he can only hear me..Its so depressing..We
went from being in each others arms every day, to never seeing and being with each other, only hearing..
I wish and pray so much that we could just be together again soon...
Even if we end up letting go of all of this, we have both decided, to try and get back together after school and start back where we left off. But
thats if worst comes to worst and we separate...
If I would have never moved, I'm like positive our relationship would last forever. But for now, we just have to get past these two more years of
highschool, then we can be togeter, and I know a lot can happen in two years..but I think we can make it work. The wait will be worth it when I'll be
able to be in his arms when ever I want.
*sigh* Right now, the distance has been tearing this apart, but were holding on to what we have left.
I don't want to lose him, and he doesn't
want to lose me. We both love each other very much, and everyone who has known me or even seen us together, can see our love for each other. Its not
something one would just let slip away from them.
Ugh...I could go on forever about this...but i'll shut up now....
I don't really know why I'm even posting this really....
But if you have any advice or something, I'd appreciate it!
[edit on 6-3-2009 by minnie]