posted on Mar, 3 2009 @ 10:17 AM
1, read The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger.
2, I wanted to message you this but what the hey.
I've worked as a counsellor for pretty much my whole life, not as a job, but more as a hobby. I love helping them. Im sure it could enlighten you to
help others, you say you already have, try buying a warm jacket and giving it to a homeless man. And never forget, there is far more to the world than
a majority of assholes. There is as much as you are willing to explore.
I grew up fast. I grew up hard. I did all the right things, studied hard, loved others, did my chores, and still got #ed over. I've been cheated on,
lost EVERY best friend I've ever had, my relationship with my parents has always been terrible at best, I've been in three car accidents that werent
my fault and been blamed 100%, I find work to be slavery, school sucked, everythings hollow. There is no such thing as "karma", in the traditional
sense. But thats life, sometimes the good get punished and the bad reap the rewards. The wisest quote ever given was only three words: "Life's a
I have had a number of relationships, but only three what I would call 'girlfriends'. All of them cheated on me. So I understand your lack of trust.
I understand your hatred of the world. But you have to pick yourself up by the throat and finish the race.
Your way of thinking is simplistic; life is about winning.
It is not.
Life is about experience. Just last summer I had to deal with my present best friend moving away, life was unorganised, I was devastated. But I
thought, I can be depressed and lose him as a friend once he goes, or I can suck it up and make the most of the time left. But the reality never left
me. At the same time my group of friends fell completely apart. At the same time I received death threats. Among other things. Then I met a girl who
made everything better.
Long story short, she moved away and ditched me, saying the relationship wouldnt work when she lived 4 hours away. I was crushed but somewhat
understanding. And then she started going out with another guy. Wow.
I went across the world to visit my old friend who had moved away. The trip helped my head and was great seeing him, but so many things went wrong it
was idiotic. Then his girlfriend cheated on him, during my trip, and just he and I returned to my house, his (ex)girlfriend cancelling.
On returning I found my room destroyed and some possessions missing.
Believe me, I learned the hard way, some people just cant win. But I go on. Life is suffering, but suffering is not life.
Now for you. I cant believe you are 34 and complaining about the hollowness of life. You should have learned that 20 years ago. Good that you keep up
the struggle, yes we are all in this together, some people dont realise this but you cant forget that. When you give up on the world, you are just
another casualty in the war for the soul.
Suck it up man, we've all been where you are. Be thankful you're in a place you can live to be 34, that there are countless others who have walked
the path before you, that there are not always answers to a problem but you can come damn close to solving them.
And the sooner you realise what a joke the world is, the better. The world thrives on absurdities and farce.
Finally, disregard what Clearskies said.
Do not put faith in God. Do not put trust in God.
When He fails, you will shatter.
Instead, put LOVE in God. Put HOPE in God. And moreover, put them in humanity.
When you RELY on someone/thing else for salvation, you become weak. It can only come from YOU! I hear so often, "Im merely human, Im only one man."
Take out 'merely' and 'only'. Humanity is far stronger than we get credit for.