Hi folks. I have to describe this, partly to see if anyone else can relate and partly because I'm having a waking moment when I see full truth and
realize that I wasn't vigilant in my life and have perhaps picked up some bad habits.
Do you know why this physical universe is so great? It's because it is so very predictable. I haven't seen any miracles... on the physical plane,
that is. So, eventually, given enough time, when you keep seeing the same dang patterns over and over, like life knocking on your door, trying to get
you to realize something, you can finally start doubting your assumptions enough (Ego hit) to start questioning your assumptions and, perhaps, realize
that you've made some mistakes in your life. This sounds all very obvious, I'm sure. But, this isn't all about an ego hit. Sometimes it's very
fun and enjoyable as well.
Dang, I didn't mean to say all that, but anyway, when I have moments alone, listening to music and just being by myself and AWAY from the TV AND even
the COMPUTER (dare I say), I start getting flashes of thoughts and ideas and insight. It comes as regular thoughts, but they come fast and I can't
really ignore them. I get swept up into them. Then, suddenly, I'll just come back to reality with no recollection of what I was just thinking. It
doesn't really feel like I'm communicating with another entity, as can happen with some enthogens.
I'm totally normal physically, I'm just basically very absorbed with what I'm thinking. It seems normal while I'm in the other state. And, the
reason I'm labeling it as another "state" is the immediate loss of memory 30 seconds later. I completely lose what I was thinking and sometimes
even what I was doing at the time. It's hard to convey in words just how frustrating this memory loss can be.
There is also another aspect. When I go into the other state, I also immediately recall everything that I know about myself and the world in that
state. It's like my subconscious state has a completely different wold model than my conscious state. Most of this knowledge includes what I was
thinking the last few times I was in that state. It's like when I go into that state, I'm like, "Oh yeah, I remember this, and, Oh yeah, I
remember that too, and that, yep, uh huh."
I've spent a lot of time over the years researching cognitive neuroscience and neurology to a certain degree for AI projects and I've learned that
the right hemisphere can sometimes appear to be an entirely different person. Google alien hand syndrome. When the corpus callosum was completely
severed in epileptic patients, the two hemispheres of the brain could not communicate anymore. The corpus callosum is a thick curved layer of nerves
that run between the two hemispheres. It look much like a "bus", in electronics parlance. The two hemispheres don't have equal control over our
bodies. Normally, they cooperate through the corpus callosum and everything goes smoothly. The left hemisphere controls speech and some say that
it's like the right hemisphere is "without a voice." Check out these experiments...
Alien Hand (Discovery)
Of course, along with insights, some irrational fears based on past experiences come up and I did manage to call them as such and deal with them.
Anyway, writing this (