Am I Crazy?
The more I indulge in strange alternative topics such as those debated on ATS I cannot help but ask myself why I do it and how much of it is true. I
have a tendency to question everything and depending on the amount of evidence I have, I lean towards my conclusion but refuse to completely stand by
it in most decisions as recent times have shown there is almost always substantial evidence to support the theory and to debunk it also. This usually
leaves me leaning towards a certain viewpoint instead of completely accepting is as the truth on the subject depending on how it fits my personal
beliefs. I also understand that people want to be part of something and want to feel unique in this world. But does that desire lead them to believe
something that is not true? Does that desire lead them to ultimately lie to their self about what is considered reality and induce a sense of false
meaning that comes from things such as conspiracies or religion to achieve that desire and fill that void?
Are we another category of humans that use that approach to fill the need instead of collecting nice trinkets, cars, tv's and physical material
possessions. In my mind there are multiple categories of people that have some specific method to fill the void whether it is religion, guns, cars,
fitness, abuse, sex, sports, addictions and more. It all seems an attempt to find happiness or originality or an effort to subdue personal discontent.
And I will not say we should not be attempting to fill the void for it is in my mind, human nature.
How do you separate the sane from the insane? Ask yourself am I crazy?
There is a saying that I like to use and it is: "A madman never doubts his sanity"
So what I attempt to accomplish with this thread is for everyone reading it to ask their self on a personal level, "Am I Crazy". I would truly like
to know what you think about your personal sanity. Surely you are asking why does the OP have any interest in this? Has the OP slipped off the deep
end? My reasoning behind this question is to help evaluate my own personal reasoning on the subject and maybe I have slipped off the deep end.
The dictionary definition of sane is:
1. free from mental derangement; having a sound, healthy mind: a sane person.
2. having or showing reason, sound judgment, or good sense: sane advice.
The definition of insane is:
1. not sane; not of sound mind; mentally deranged.
2. of, pertaining to, or characteristic of a person who is mentally deranged: insane actions; an insane asylum.
Based on the descriptions above what is a healthy mind considered?
IMHO a healthy mind, a sane person free from mental derangement or insanity is someone that does not do or think anything against the standard
acceptance of reality which in turn spawns from our immediate surroundings and raised traditions and 5 senses correct?
One of the ways someone might be considered to be insane in my mind would be someone would be seeing things that are not really there such as large
spiders everywhere which ultimately leads them to do things outside the barrier of acceptance in their ways of acting, speaking, thinking and such.
But is what we see there really there? I am not saying there are large arachnids there but what do we not see that exists regardless of whether or not
we acknowledge it?
Just because that specific "insane" person is the only one seeing spiders does not mean they are insane, or does it? Are they in a different level
of existence? Methodically we would come to the conclusion that the insane persons brain is not working properly and inducing visions or
hallucinations that do not really exist based on how our brains are wired and how we consider what is accepted as a world or nation or based on what
we see and think we know from a traditionalized way of life. We do not see giant spiders to exist of course and theoretically they don't in the
reality that we abide in as compared to the insane persons reality.
But what if things are not as they seem?
Think about the possibility of a virtual existence or existences. Think about the many different subjects that will have people calling you crazy as
such conspiracies located on this site. Given it is against the standard belief system of those who say so and is against the majoritys accepted way
of thinking. But translation and point of view seem to me to determine what reality and sanity really is. Take a child for example and their reality
is completely different than ours in the way that they understand the world around them and the perspective and translation they give it. Man seems to
give illogical or mythical explanations to what can be logically explained or what we think can be logically explained based on the knowledge we
think is fact.
Furthermore I can't help but ask myself am I floating into the deep end with the thoughts I entertain on a daily basis in my attempt to find the
truth? Am I actually going crazy giving into the ideas that are considered out of bounds by some and truth by others or am I already crazy and don't
Should I accept the accepted way of life and belief and live the seemingly mundane life and tell myself I am happy or should I find purpose in what
sometimes seems insane? Are the insane unaccepted ideas sanity and vice versa? Should I question everything and expect to find truth or will I land
myself in a padded cell by asking the questions no one wants to? Will I be institutionalized because I am willing to accept the truth if it can be
proven regardless of how crazy it may seem?
Will it really be the truth or will I have become insane and think it is the truth? How many of us are currently in this state and do not realize it?
Is this a reasonable way of putting it? What is reasonable? What separates sanity from insanity? Madmen never doubt their sanity right? Hope I don't
end up in a padded cell in a straight jacket from giving into seemingly nonsensical reasoning as this all seems. Seemingly nonsensical in the
viewpoint that is widely accepted by others.