Originally posted by sinebyte
i feel so emotional right now. i feel that finding this post was fate.
i continued the book
and it came to a point talking about chakras. although i have had many spiritual experiances in my life chakras were one of those things that i never
was able to experiance and so thought it was just more gumph that came with this scene. But whilst reading this book as the words rang so true to me
and because of the other experiance that i had had, as i read about them i knew they were real and when i realised that i could feel them. they were
warm energy spots going down my body just like i had seen them it was amazing. i went onto a forum and spoke about them and peopl suggested different
things one was to draw white light through the top of my head. i did this another night and the energy came into my body from the top and had a mind
of its own, it went down through all the chakras and i could feel that it was cleaning them, lighting up certain parts of my heart chakra like one
side that i didnt know was there the feeling when it fixed it was like a menthol cool energy. this night was a great experiance. i tried this again
another night with crystals on certain crystals over the chakra points when i drew the energy in from the top it would go past the brow chakra and i
could feel a pressure on my head. in my mind i saw eyes and i had a vision of one person or thing stamping on my head. i put this down to negative
thoughts just popping in as i had recently had eyes comming into my mind and i brush them away. i took the crystals off and went to bed. the next day
i was in a state and this lasted for about a month. i thought i was going mad and i was depressed and having anxiety. i was in a blur and i was spaced
out. thinking in my mind scared me the sound of thoughts in my mind and thoughts just came into my mind. this lasted for ages and i went to stay with
my father in tears he thought i had a breakdown/depression. after about a month this started to go away and eventually it went....
... the next day BANG i was in that place again it took another 3-4 weeks for this to subside i finally reaslied that if i left everything spiritual
alone it would go away. now whenever i read or think or do anything spiritual i get these pains in my head and face tingles and im scared to do
anything as i dont want to be in that place again. somtimes even writining a post like this starts to get the front and back of my head hurting.
please no negative posts guys i really need some guidance on this as i have been told different things.
As I said in the OP Im no expert and I will say this to everyone. I only wish to raise awarness of this subject and maybe open peoples eyes to the
pitfalls and maybe prevent what happened to me happening to others. I want to share my experiences and discuss with others theirs, as you have done
above, but I must state I can not help anyone or show them the way. We all have very different ways of dealing with this and Im sure we are
manipulated in different ways too, due to this the answer can only be found within each of us. Its there we just need to stay completely free of fear
and listen to our inner voice and guide.
What you describe above is very very similar to what happened to me. I stumbeled on chakra meditation on a thread in here and didnt think twice about
it I just went ahead and did it. Since Oct 07 Id had this funny "calling" or need to awaken myself, its hard to describe but I just felt I was
changing and I needed to seek out why.
I suddenly started getting this ringing in my right ear, it wasnt a normal ring it was almost like a message, morse code like sometimes. It was this
ringing that lead me to meditation as some one said it was infact a message and the way to understand it was to go into a quite meditative state and
just listen to the ringing, let it become part of my mind, to absorb it until the ringing stopped. This way I would be truely listening to it and its
message would go in even though I couldnt understand it at the time.
So anyway off I went doing this chakra meditation recomended by a group (not standard unfortunatly)and within days I felt wonderful. I like you
suddenly felt alive, I felt all the chakras open, I actually saw their colours as orbs in my 3rd eye. I remember now the first thing I saw was a large
white orb pulsating in what I now know is my 3rd eye. Then came a green and a violet one and a lovely feeling of complete love flew through me. Id
never felt anything like it before, it was as if a whole new part of me had become awake. Very soon my heart chakra dominated all the others, it
become very strong, it radiated a lovely warm feeling from it most of the day. I was just in a complete state of bliss, even now I look back on that
early period and think how wonderful it felt.
Then it all started to go wrong, I started feeling very very upset, almost like I had no spirit left, like I was a walking shell with nothing left. At
one point I collapsed and could not stop crying for 2 hours solidly, I have never ever felt like that before and I hope I never ever do again. It was
as if I had no soul thats the closest thing to this state that describes it. My husband nearly took me to hospital thats how bad I was that night.
The next few months I was very emotional, full of pure saddness, emptyness like a void almost. I became ill, I felt sick but could not be sick. I had
to go to bed for a week, I had no energy, no life, nothing in me.
My 3rd eye opened constantly sending messages to my brain of information I have no idea about. I likened this to being like R2D2 in Star Wars when
they used to plug him into the mainframe, millions of files seemed to be coming into me of information, places, people, colours and lights. I could
not shut my 3rd eye off at all, I just had to lie there until this "download" was over.
I was just a total different person, I was no longer happy go lucky I was just upset and ill.
To make it worse I had all these entities visit me most nights. The eyes were the worst. They didnt scare me they just made me jump. Ive been told
they were remote viewers and not astrals at all, but how would a remote viewer know who I was? Why would they be interested in me? Plus some of these
eyes were fire eyes, like bright yellow flames.
The worst attacks were the dark entities, I never saw these physically except astrally but when I was awake theyd come and Id feel them all around me.
Once the mood of the room changed to one of a very dark nature. A void seemed to open up in front of me and this very powerful darkness vortexed in
front of me, I felt my "self" being torn out of my body in a way, and it became a battle of wills. I tryed the white light but it was a very
powerful darkness, I tryed unconditional love but that seemed useless, in the end the only thing that got it to leave was facing up to it head on with
It seems in all this fear is a weapon they use. Its as if they feed on it. I do believe fear is an energy that we send out.
Id see the dark entities astrally, they were in all in one body suits covering their faces too. There was always 3 of them,(apart from the time when
they merged into one large black horrible entity) they always attacked me, once they attacked me so bad I realized i was not going to be able to
escape and I was overcome with immense fear. At this point a person appeared in grey scale, a man and took these dark entites off me.
As I say to you it has taken me a year to become something near balanced again so I can totally understand why you feel like you do and wish to stay
well away from spiritual practises. The pains in your head and tingles is very similar too. I used to get terrible pains above my eyes and still do
What is the answer? To give up and allow these things to stop us becoming more conscious and awake? I was told at the time I was basically having a
spiritual emergency and I think they were right. Maybe this is what has happened to you too. I kept going, the calling inside me was so strong I just
had to keep going, even in the very dark times when I just wanted to give up, I thought there MUST be a reason for all this.
My worst point came just after Christmas this year. I just couldnt take anymore so I just surrendered to it all. I just said right this is happenning,
its not getting any easier I need help. I just sat and pleaded for my guides, higher self, anything that could truely help me over come all this. I
asked from the bottom of my heart, I needed help and I was ready to take control and responsability for what Id got myself into. it seemed they
listened because throughout January I began to feel more in control, more grounded, more empowered than Id ever felt before. I realized I didnt need
any new age teachings all I needed was my own inner guides.
I see now over 2008 Id had many many dreams that were warnings and guidance but Id ignored them totally. My guides/higher self had been there all
along by my side desperatly trying to get me to see the correct path.
I wrote all these dreams down even though at the time they meant very little to me, now when I read them the answer is there very clearly.
Im not sure why I didnt listen, friends also tryed desperatly to tell me but I also ignored them.
I just think the answer is to trust yourself and LISTEN to yourself. My self told me in the early days this new age meditation was wrong but I became
caught up in it too quickly and before I knew it my inner voice had been silenced.
I have some thoughts on showing these entities unconditional love that I will post next.