posted on Apr, 14 2004 @ 09:14 AM
Today, I find myself in a far different position than I found myself in November of 2002. That era of my life, I would say, denoted the peak of my
research into esoterica and most of the stuff dicussed here. Chances were, if you saw me behind a computer and were able to see what I was looking at
before I alt-tabbed it outta there, you'd see me looking at someone's take on underground bases, mind control, occult weapons of war (aircraft,
particle beams, etc), 911, NWO, secret societies, and ancient archaeology.
After reading so many webpages, seeing so many different perspectives on life, and gleaning through so many different forums to see what public
opinion has to say... I feel a bit burnt-out; a little demotivated to continue looking.
That's not to say I have completely given up yet, so wipe the drool from your mouths, you silly espionage agents. I just find myself opening pages
and not even reading them as often as I should...
I still read pages and threads, but not as much as I like and not as much as I used to. I find myself getting back into that trap where I tend to
distract myself more as opposed to educating myself... What I am getting at is...
help? please? how can I cure this? surely I'm not the only one who has faced this quandary.