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Man is blogging his final 30 days before he kills himself

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posted on Feb, 19 2009 @ 01:14 PM
Although I definately think this is some kind of hoax he is not deleting any comments at all. he has no activity of that kind. That has always been the wierd thing he only uploads and thats it. I have left some pretty honest and mean comments on youtube and they all are still there. He is not deleting anything so far.

posted on Feb, 21 2009 @ 03:03 PM
I tried to find this guy's website(s) today and found some suspended accounts. At this point I don't know if it's for real or not. I hope it was all a bunch of fakery. Having said that, he makes me sick.

posted on Feb, 23 2009 @ 02:08 AM
He still has his youtube account. Last entry was yesterday day 29.

posted on Feb, 23 2009 @ 12:11 PM
So is today day 30 then? Wonder if he is going to do one last vid for them.

If he does a vid of himself dieing then gaurantee it's a hoax, noone would put their family through that.

posted on Feb, 23 2009 @ 01:42 PM
Well, here's the last video... Enjoy.

He's an actor. Its a work called death perception. He and a bunch of other pretty bad actors got together and did this.

Meh, I would've been at least slightly impressed if it had been done well. But I guess it was good enough to fool some people.

posted on Feb, 23 2009 @ 03:50 PM
I didn't know if I should hit him or hug him. LOL Though I had wondered at times if it were a hoax, I had to treat it as though it was serious, just in case. You just never know. Anyway, I'm greatly relieved that we didn't lose a life here.

posted on Feb, 23 2009 @ 04:19 PM
Here is his justification..

there is a longer explanation letter at soon. Youtube is telling me its too long to stick in this description field. (well now it seems to be hacked. Hopefully I will get the chance to post the full letter soon)

The 30th day of this blog, is in the form of an 89 minute film titled Death Perception that myself and a dozen other talented artists worked together to make. The character in these vlogs, Clint, almost lives his last day in the film, which is a cautionary tale of depression and its seriousness, which allows us to see him as he barely climbs out of it. The 30daystodeath blog serves as a prequel for the film, as the characters video blogs over the last month lead up to day the in which the film takes place.
I am an artist. But I knew I had a responsibility to the weight of this material. This is obviously a very touchy subject and cannot be approached without quite a lot of work to make the message clear. If one person who has been in the grip of this mindset, has seen this prequel or the film and it has helped them realize this. It was worth it.
Some stories have to be told from the mindset of those its intended for.
The poignancy of this mans tragedy is in the understanding of that mindset. So I decided it could use a prequel. I wanted to reach those who are using the same justifications that Clint does in the blogs.
So I wrote a bunch of monologues, filmed them on a little Kodak EasyShare and just pieced together a journal that led this character up to the beginning of our film. Its like a really in-depth, involved trailer. Or a small interactive TV-show to promote the film since the character in the 30daystodeath blogs, only addresses the other characters that exist in the world of the FILM itself. Noone else.
This entire project is about one thing. Young people who are already depressed and feel no way out of their bubble of thinking. The bottom line is this is about bringing attention to how much a person can alter their perceptions and their own logic to avoid the parts of their life they SHOULD be focusing on, the things they feel are too painful to face, and instead adopt a way of thinking that caters to their need for an easy route. Selfishly justifying ways around the pain it will cause their friends and family and the insult it is to their own personal potential. Depression is a terrible thing because of this power it has on our thinking and perception. When it is you, you never see it coming. Its like a personality parasite. Your own need for alleviating yourself of all these worldly problems feeds itself by giving you a sense of finality and convinces you it is the only way you can breath easily and relax. But all of the problems youre avoiding, do not disappear. They transfer to everyone who knows you, for them to carry.
A lot of films and media that deal with depression I find is preachy, youll go to hell etc etc. But that doesnt work on someone who is already in the grip of severe depression, that hyper selfish attitude that permanently separates you from the rest of the world. I knew one thing in my heart that was most important, this was the first time this hoax was going to occur and try to help people. The two ways I feel that I can do that with this particular project is to attempt to get it hopefully seen by someone in the position of this character and identify with not only the words and thoughts but also with the realization that it is self-indulgent and think "oh wait. maybe Im not listening enough to myself. Maybe my subconscious is hearing only what it wants to hear." Secondly, if by chance anyone does take notice and decide to purchase the film, I am donating all of the proceeds from Amazon sales of the film to the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention. I want to make that perfectly clear, I AM NOT MAKING A SINGLE DIME FROM THE AMAZON SALES. You will be helping a good cause if/when any copy of Death Perception is purchased.
I sincerely apologize for being misleading, however I hope that you can understand now that I worked very hard with the very best intentions. This is a tough time right now, I see a lot of suicides in the news as people are losing their homes and livelihoods. Depression is a serious thing and very dangerous. Feel free to write me an email if you have any further questions or comments and I will be happy to respond.


I know many of you may actually like this explanation, but I'm a bit put off by it. Its a bit cliche and convoluted.

posted on Feb, 24 2009 @ 12:04 AM
he sounds to me like an immature jerk. it's the kind of thing i did when i was in a drama class when i was 17. the fact that his viral marketing didn't work very well makes me very happy. what a jerk

posted on Feb, 24 2009 @ 12:21 AM
I wish he did top himself...


posted on Feb, 24 2009 @ 12:52 AM
it's obvious that his grasp on suicide/depression is lacking, too. as someone who suffers with a depressive illness, i find his "explanation" patronising & far off the mark.

does he really think that if you're in the "grasp of severe depression" you could be BOTHERED to go to a Vegas casino, film a blog for 30 days, etc etc? when i'm having an episode of severe depression, i can hardly be bothered to get out of bed and have a wash.

posted on Feb, 24 2009 @ 04:18 AM
What a douchebag.
I would like to slap the taste out of his mouth.

posted on Feb, 27 2009 @ 12:52 PM
I would say that perhaps some of his vlogs were good-not all though. The point someone made above about clint going to vegas in his supposed depression rings true to me, I identify with your sentiment their friend, that was nonsense and far from identifying with someone so far depressed as to commit suicide. Another point I'd like to make is that while the vlogs weren't god aweful, the actual movie they lead up to WAS. I mean, it would have been better if he had just left the vlogs unattached to the crap of a movie they intended to use the vlogs to bolster interest in. Seriously going to get his fair share of backlash on all this if he hasn't already. Hiding behind artistic ambitions doesn't usually work for forgiveness unless the piece your doing all that for comes out exceptional. This "piece" in my opinion is nothing of the sort I'd overlook the sensitivity of the subject for. So long Clint! *tips hat*

posted on Mar, 27 2009 @ 05:07 PM
reply to post by SantaClaus

Thank you for actually looking at depression and suicide with an open mind.

I am diagnosed with clynical depression, and it just seems to get worse and worse every day. I take three different types of meds, but it still is getting worse. I've had two previous attempts, and both failed. Not going into detail, but it's not something you get over. I'm one of those people that can seem completely happy-go-lucky in public, but when I'm in private just thinking, I see the endless pain and sufferring that life really is. No matter where I am or what i'm doing, I'm always going to be eatten from the inside by these, I hate using the term, 'inner demons' when ever I am alone.

Simple response, stay around people, I know. There are times when I do get out because I feel the shadow of depression gripping me again, but you can't help being alone when you sleep, or wait for it to come and it doesn't because you have insomnia to top of the depression. Then throw in some PTSD, mix well, and you have a very deadly combination that not many people can understand.

I see the state of the world and I wish I could wipe away all the pain and sufferring, but the only way to not feel the pain of the world, is to just leave it behind. Since we have no other planet to go to, I feel the only logical choice is to make and adventure to the otherside. It would be permanent, but it would be an amazing adventure that would bring a new meaning to my current definition of life. Death is coming to us all, what difference does it make if it happens today, tomarrow, or forty years from now.

For those that think it's a selfish act, I think you fail to realize that these so called selfish people are usually the ones that gave and gave and gave, but never was given. Those that are so emotionally sensitive to all things, that being used over and over can, and will, lead these types to refuse to play the game anymore, and the just hit their own power switch.

Then look at it this way, you think you're stronger than us, just because you don't want to kill yourself. No, the stronger person is the one that succeeds. I can tell you that it is a scary thing holding a barrel in your mouth knowing that once you pull the trigger, you are instantly going to have a new home. Do you think you could leave everyone and everything you love and hold dear?
My guess... Probably not.

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