Disclaimer: The following is a personal truth, meaning: I do not mean to preach or dictate, just to pour out my heart and mind. If you are
suggestible, I urge you to interpret your personal feelings of the following...opinions.
(I'm trying to avoid karma)
If I had to try real hard to kind of sum up what I feel separates us as humans, it's degrees of self awareness. There are some of us who know
ourself more then others know thierselves, and in different ways not just overall.
I don't think people do anything they feel is wrong, I think even when a poor decision is made they think they were doing the right thing in their
mind. I'm using this just as an example. So call it ignorance or that simply they overlooked some details, they are still just being thierself..but
so few people have such a grasp of that identity.
I came to a realization the other day and I think it has profoundly rewired the judgemental part of my thoughts I've been unable to kick. I think my
judgement stems from a desire to positively change something, combined with my perceptiveness. But what allowed me to finally let go of the habit of
judging others (before it was like a habit I resisted and tried and tried to fix)... but anyways.. what finally allowed me to let go was simple. I
realized...firstly..self-awareness..these people are being thierself, the best they know how, how can I blame them?..but more importantly.. 2. I learn
more about myself every day, this is my spiritual path I walk.. to become more aware of myself... and I thought.... How can we begin to assume we have
others figured out when we ourselves constantly redefine who we are? We can never know the full story, so we can't assume. So I realized... so its
pretty much pointless to judge anyone isn't it?
I realized...its not that they say you SHOULDN'T judge... because that thought wasn't getting me too far... its that you CAN'T judge..rather that
its sort of futile, an on going process where there will always be more variables... not unless you knew everything there is to know about yourself
and everything there is to know about the other person, as well as probably every other factor of existence, for to fully know yourself, you'd have
to fully understand the existence you live in. So if there is that finite
level that you could one day reach... well...you understand
EVERYTHING..and so then you can judge.. But just don't be surprised that if you get to such a state of realization that you begin to feel as if
others aren't exactly so separate from the self.. and so it becomes sort of a self judgement.
A bit of a rant there but this the kind of BASIC stuff to me, its the basics that satisfy the complex questions, and this to me gives me the most
profound sense of self awareness.. its not tinkering in thoughts of light and gravity and souls etc.. its more like observing basics.. hard to
explain.. basic apparent givens that require no scientific instruments, no measurements etc.
I also recently received the gift of freedom from obligation.
Another "basic" I self
realized.. "I" feel "we" have no obligations, and this another secondary thing that the world places into our
mindset. It seems all we can do is be ourself and how we live our life is a reflection of how we choose to BE ourself...and so in the sense, say your
work was dishonest, like you wanted to leave early..but this was fine in your PERSONAL mindset.. I mean you might frown upon your dishonesty and see
the wrong in it.. yet you might think... I feel I create my reality in the way I see fit and perhaps ducking out of work allows me to get these other
things done etc...and so this is something I have arranged...but furthermore...it seems the purpose of life to me is know/BE ourself because that
seems like what we really do behind it all... and if we are just being ourself..while creating our own reality... why should we feel bound to the
rules that the world put on us? I'm not encouraging dishonesty..just encouraging one to be theirself and not get wrapped up in superficial?..we'll
say secondary or artificial.. things. In that sense I'm encouraging one to be honest to thierself
I hope that made sense.
Like for example I struggle to find time and juggle all my projects and I stopped to think just what I was doing.. I was putting so much importance on
this and that.. etc... and like.. I was thinking this morning..ahh I gotta do qi-gong but I'm reading this message from zy5in... and I
realized...why am I doing qi-gong? Ultimately for self-awareness... yet i'm having a very constructive conversation thats helping with that
self-awareness so how am I losing? We get stuck in our own routines and forget what the goal is I think sometimes.
Why do I stress doing this or that..why learn to do this, why do this and so on... and you think.. i'm just doing all of this to satisfy my deep
sense of purpose.. whatever it is you may do in life.. the self-awareness I find runs with fulfillment of the desires of self..to feel fulfilled in
what you do.. hard to explain.... I often used to think where I fit in it all.. what job to do etc.. I saw people lived very basic lives I did not
understand, or rather did not personally see fulfilling.... and I was thinking.. I have to do something that for the most part satisfies my sense of
purpose, but the ever expanding sense of self alters that as well.. it's an interesting relationship.
All we can ever do is listen to ourself.. and then act upon on that. To do otherwise no matter how its viewed..good..or bad.. is to live a
lie. What purpose is there in perceivable good if its a personal lie? To do otherwise is to live through someone's else's truth.
What is truth? To aspire to see with eyes unclouded and to just be.. to know..what is.. to be one true self...in other words..for things to be just as
they are without any additional spin on it. Why is it that some of us desire this truth so much while others put such little care in it? Why is that?
Is this simple concept what makes some of us "special"? I don't feel special do you? I'm just being myself, and i'll never stop being myself, and
i'll never stop trying to be MORE of myself and fulfill the sense of purpose of myself.
What is beauty? Unity is beauty..for when concepts..atoms..particles etc..BE, the existence of "something".. thoughts or light..the infinitely
smallest point of presence if you will...Hard for me to articulate this one.. Everything is bound in nature, if you can break that down logically or
conceptual.. the fact that I perceive a world means I am of a symbolic unification with it.. this unity is like a painting.. when all things are
unified it becomes an elaborate perceivable tapestry of concept. Beauty is up to interpretation but beauty happens when there is something to
interpret.. now this really mind bending stuff.. if you think..freedom from limitation of what you consider to be "something"... If it can be
observed, or thought of conceptually... if it can just exist and BE.... then this is what I'm getting at...it can be deemed beautiful. it is united
with all, even if it IS all,..and if only on a conceptual level.. it is part of the painting.. and it can be deemed beautiful.
So what the hell are you getting at Steve? (says the confused readers)... observe nature.. observe the animals, the trees, the galaxies.. its all
united.. What is unity.. it is peace... what is love..but the allowance to be, thus the allowance of unity..and where there is this allowance, the
concepts will stay together..the unity will remain, and thus the beauty remains.. with this allowance, it cannot fall apart... and with this
allowance..this love..this desire for peace.. to just let things be..because it feels RIGHT..it feels TRUE..we might feel personally..this is a TRUTH
to me.. that things must be.... well then.. with this allowance... unity prevails.. the image..the concept..the painting stays together... and
beauty.. beauty reveals itself..
All is beautiful that is of a unity, all that is unity is the infinitesimal concept of being..if you can define size or quantity, it doesn't matter.
For it to be, it has to be holding itself together, in that sense there is still a sense of balance and unity. I want to drop the "T" word.. truth..
I'm hinting something, a piece of my own puzzle..but its MY puzzle.. and I retain truth is personal so its up to you.
Beauty reveals itself. Look at the world you perceive externally or internally.
Through my own self awareness...that is to say.. self truths... it has shown me more harmony..more unity.. it has brought upon a balance which has
helped align the tilted scale and let in possibilties I've been missing.. beautiful things from both sides of the scale encompass my life now. I'm
in touch with both my male and female qualities and the more I accept them and allow them to be harmoniously, the more beautiful life seems, and the
close I feel to knowing myself.. the closer I feel I am to TRUTH.
What is duality but something to compliment the other? If you're an artist you know this is the chemistry for an art piece.
And on another note... you might say well.. thats nice and all Steve, but I disagree..the world is an ugly place.. We can paint something terrible and
it becomes beautiful to us once we are able to REMOVE ourselves from it and observe it. Take a picture of a war-torn country and observe the artistry
of nature, of our world. How much of our artistic media depict "ugly" things? war..murder.. etc..
Throat chakra powering down..
Never stop being yourself, though I don't think it's possible if you know what I mean.
[edit on 4-2-2009 by CavemanDD]