posted on Oct, 2 2009 @ 01:51 AM
APPLAUSE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAVE FIGURED IT OUT. if only more people would.
i had chemo, the bastards poisoned me, and even tho i am currently cancer free (probably thanks to my diet and chinese doctor i suspect, whose herbs
are pretty much keeping me standing) the chemo has TOTALLY SCREWED UP MY BODY. i ache every day; all over; i still cant walk up stairs a year later
or walk anywhere fast; i feel like my heart is TOTALLY F....D - well they did warn me i guess - heart failure was one of the possible side effects, as
was leukemia (meaning that chemotherapy CAUSES cancer and is carcinogenic). i get heart palpitations and cant run etc etc etc. also my family dont
really believe me about the side effects anymore; they think its been a year and im just complaining now. while having chemo and being admitted to
hospital after i collapsed each time they gave it to me; i felt like a malingerer cuz of the way the ambulance people and doctors treated me - they
all acted as if i was 'putting it on' or something!!!! i couldnt walk, thought i was gonna die; and swelled up like a balloon full of fluid. my
parents still cant understand why i was in a virtual coma for three days after every injection and think that i just 'didnt want to get up' or
something - like i could have! basically, its put out that the side effects arent that bad; u shud be able to go to work; have kids; and do volunteer
charity work as well while on chemo, and die when you're supposed to.... (a few weeks after chemo everyone was telling me to run/jog and do exercise;
they cudnt understand at all when i kept saying that i COULDNT physically do that. altho i did go for walks....)
sorry about my little outburst there. i may harbour some pent up hostility...
hem... just realized i already posted on thsi thread some time ago; oh well, i probably repeated myself i suspect.
[edit on 2-10-2009 by rapunzel222]