posted on Jan, 31 2009 @ 08:34 AM
Around 10 days ago I got sick I had fever, chills, shakes, headache, my ears are clogged and I have chest congestion, and frankly I have felt like the
walking dead. The doctor told me I have the flu and strep throat and ear infections, so I have been taking 3 prescriptions and one of the pills I
swear is the size of a grape. I work at a luxury hotel, or I used to work at a luxury hotel plus I have 3 kids going to 3 different schools so every
bug that comes around I usually get, but not this bad. I have been really sick this time.
Stress and anxiety:
For months I have been under a ton of stress with my job, they changed my shifts I work, there was the constant threat of layoff and massive hours
being cut yet having the workload tripled, basically I am losing my job right now, but it’s irrelevant because that job no longer was able to
support me. The anxiety has been terrible; I can barely sit for over a half an hour at a time I feel like I do when they issue tornado warnings for
where I live. On top of the illness and stupid job, the public transportation system here is going to undergo massive cuts in March, and it just made
my commute to and from work much more expensive. My conventional life here is/has fallin apart, but I feel it was by design, many different things
affecting a change in my life, btw one of my co workers just quit to become a full time artist, and I’m have done the same thing to be a
I’m in a position where I could do 2 things. Option 1 is to pay up as many bills as I can, and hope I will be making more money in a few months.
This isn’t going to happen, the hotel is undergoing a remodel and won’t be completed for at least 5 months, plus the 18 month forecast is
terrible. I would get a second job but No one has answered the resumes I have already sent plus the hotel won’t work around both schedules.
I’m buying camping equipment, a laptop and getting mobile internet, I’m planning to hike my way to Alaska via the southwest. I’m not sure I
will end up in Alaska, not sure about anything anymore, but the people I meet and the adventures I have and the things I see will be shared with all
via the net both here on ATS and a myspace blog.
I’m going to attempt to sell everything I own in the next month, and purchase what I will need, and I need to make a route I would like to take.
Everyday I will write about what I experienced, who I met, and whats up in that part of the USA and will post it to the net 7 days later.
I do wonder if others are hearing or feeling the calling? To flee? Or to do what u really want to do and to hell with money. All of my life I have
had the urge to move towards the northwest, to prepare for something, or to run from something? And each day that passes this feeling or urge grows
till I can’t sit still anymore. I compare it to a calling from God to preach, or a constant whisper in my ear.
I’m terrified and excited at the same time. I plan on leaving March 1 so I have a lot to do.