posted on Jan, 29 2009 @ 12:12 AM
I helped another last night...
A lost child on another 'board...
Hearing his/her cry for "advice" -- I gave what I could and found a form of center.
I know now that I have not been helping enough people/others with my knowledge and gifts -- and *this* is why I feel the way I do.
There *are* people out there that want/need to hear what I have seen and know as true. At times (as recently evidenced) I forget that.
I am a Shaman -- and when I have no one to help, no one to listen; and lead a regimented life...I suffer.
I know my purpose -- and this person that contacted me out of the blue late after I left this thread last night re-affirmed my purpose.
I *must* be strong despite my own misgivings...for there are FAR more people out "there" that feel much more confused and lost than I do.
You all have not only comforted me (and some given a literal, logical bitch-slap) -- but allowed me to manifest a purpose and goal for myself... I
still do not know how I will be able to help others, but I think I need to stop worrying about my self and focus on others.
I feel that if I focus and set my mind on helping other confused people seeking -- I will learn and grow as much as I show them to learn and grow.
For a teacher does not only teach -- but learns from it's students as the student does from the teacher.
We are all in this boat together, after all.
[edit on 29-1-2009 by MystikMushroom]