posted on Feb, 29 2012 @ 12:33 AM
It's really wonderful know to that "I'M NOT ALONE" in this case.It's just profound me the level and interest there is in ATS, that have so much
common mind with me. I wish i knew you guys personally. Just something like this topic wouldn't be found people discussing in real life. Something i
always kept to my self for of my entire existence.I don't know what emotion to feel but the text with capitalization sure gives you a good bases.
It's incredible i'm not alone.
Any who, here is my take. I remember i was born, basically i'm not sure it was the date i remember since i don't think i still have the historical
memory footage of my first few minutes of my existence,maybe but i knew as i got older the same thoughts i was born i kept when i was 3 months to 4
months old, 1 to 4 years old and so fourth, Those memories were strong and it was particular questioning life in general, like how i existed or what
was it like non-existing, As an individual, i had one moral no one taught me, it was just there. I was self taught about it.
It was me always keep remembering who you are especially when you're born, i think it had to do with reincarnation. I was aware of reincarnation some
how, and i knew for the fact i had minimum chance to even remember exactly who i am, in my past life.But i felt like i lived a past life. So i was
eager and determine to know but the distractions along the way like mom, family cultural ideology and all sorts distorted my views along the way, but
i still some how inputted my mind to remember what i was beforehand. My mindset at the time, i felt like i was ahead my suppose age as a baby, don't
me wrong i was still trying to learn my of the ropes, like walking crawling etc. But in my head i was thinking as i grew to always put in my mind
remember that all this detraction and new life i needed to remember who i was or use to be.I believe when we are born we're capable to be aware that
you the capacity of thought to think in all boundaries.In my hypothesis theory i believe we all have stage in which we reflect on our path lives but
as our reborn. we forgett and become less aware of it as you progress and assorb new thought, new life, and the old one. the little bits remaining is
perished in our deepest thoughts or worse deleted.
I'm telling you right now, as a child physiologically i was disfigured from the rest of my pears due to the very little amount of social needs. I
developed my own basic language, I had two sisters of course. Those were the two i communicated with. But they didn't speak English nor the foreign
language my both parents native tongue speak Somali.We both spoken in gibberish but those gibberish had some meaning. I remember when the first time i
daises on the night sky i had a word for it that i for a matter of fact i know i for sure i had word for it and it stuck in my head. It had destict
Somali accent to it, but it wasn't Somali, i asked my dad recently what was the Somali word night mean. And it completely off the one i remember.
Trust me if it was the right word, i would've at least had a vivid memory over it.Also i remember when i was potty training. I wasn't suppose to
that time. My two sisters were the ones getting potty trained with the support of my mom. I was however still wearing dipers. I was roughly about 2
years old maybe a few months old. As i was aware what my mother was doing and working with my sister. I mentally "why can't i do this" i felt i had
to prove something. I didn't even wanted to show off. I attempted to keep secret until as sat on the toilet and done my first delivery of of number 1
and 2. My mom and two sisters came barging in the bathroom all celebrating. Me in my mind i was i like Oh# but physically i was chuckling. I still
however never did that task ever again until i reach later on maybe 2 and 8 months old.
I think the two stories i feel had some relevance to reincarnation in away, thoughts as young as i was, building up my own basic language and taking a
dump with out any potty training, really reels in to believe, i had a past life. Not saying that it proves it self but in my mind when i was doing
this actions as young. i had a lot conscious or unconscious mental thoughts i don't think a baby would've done.