reply to post by lel1111
Hmmmmmm, well I suppose a brief explanation of some of the chaotic events in my life would help support the idea that I may be experiencing
enlightenment, because I'd much rather believe that it's a form of spiritual awakening than a bunch of activity in my brain creating the idea of it,
especially because it happened beyond my consent, it's not like I tried to achieve it.
My mother of 39 years of age passed on Nov 12 08, and I found myself in a ultimate emotional rut.
Slowly but surely, after doing my best to pull myself out of the emotions, I began to look for answers. Not enlightenment, answers. Armageddon week
came on on Discovery channel, and me agreeing very much with science and constantly being optimistic of myself, I had got a few laughs out of it, and
watched some interesting stuff.
Now this same week, there just so happened to be a Near Death Expierence show on Discovery, at which point a lady named Pam Reynolds had a almost
impossible to access anneurism removed from her brain, they had to clinically kill her with sodium potassiate. She had ear phones in her ears,
generating a consistant clicking noise so they could monitor the brains activity and be positive of when she was dead. So, they do what they have to
She wakes up, and explains in vivid detail without any faltering points of how the procedure took place, what they did even to extent of the drill
they we're using, what it looked like, how many people we're in the room, she repeated conversations they had (keep in mind she had the ear phones
in, and only 1 in 1000 people under anasthesia can hear things when they are under the influence, not only this she repeated conversations while they
we're drilling when she was CLINICALLY DEAD.)
So after viewing that, I finally said to myself I choose not to believe in the nothing paradox, besides that .1% possibility that it might be true,
which I just don't really believe anymore.
Shortly after coming to grasps with what I call believing in spirituality, I had came up with a philosophy, which if you're bored you can read @
keep in mind it's very long, and I believe I came up with it the day after the program on
Discovery, and shortly after that I had started feeling waves of what I can best describe, a complete disassociation with physical reality, not so
much as to where I turned into a ball of light and dissappeared, but I just slowly realized that all I can do is try my best to deal with anything
life throws at me, and to try my best to keep my head up through it all, which honestly is the only thing anyone can do.
I suppose the most powerful vision I have had(after my ascension), that I can remember, I was stareing at the TV, I turned to look at the wall and I
instantly dissconnected on a very high level, and I had seen(in my head) a beautiful riverside, with fish swimming through the river, and a hawk
flying in the sky, but the hawk did not need to feed, this was a spiritual realm, and I walked to the fish and put my hand in the river, one came to
my hand and ran along side it, and I could see that exact fish in it's flock, and I could tell that that fish was much different than every other
fish, as was every other fish, that they we're all individuals, they all communicated on a level of feeling, and then I looked up, and saw a wolf,
and the wolf just stared into my eyes, and then I quickly snapped out of it.
It was a very interesting vision, more or less imaginative state of mind, but I do believe the general consensus of the entire situation I could not
of ever achieved in my life in any prior point.
I am starting to become enlightened, however I had a tarot card reading and it had told me that I need to stay where I'm at with it, and not try and
take it any higher, and also that more chaos is coming, and the cards didn't lie. It told me that I must not give into human emotion when these times
come, and that I must stay enlightened at do my best to help those around me that are going to be affected by this battle that is coming.
So....I don't know, make what you will of it but enlightenment is a very....unproven, and interesting idea/subject. I choose to hope that what ever
it is I've felt is enlightenment, I choose to wan't to believe it is, but I don't let myself disconnect from life itself....