posted on Jan, 23 2009 @ 03:44 PM
First off, I'm not sure if this story should be in this topic, so note to MODS, please move to the appropriate place if necessary. Thank you.
I have been searching all my life for "heaven on earth", or if you will, a peaceful place to be within myself.
As a child, I would dress myself and go out into our woods, we had a thousand acres, and spend my entire days just alone out in the woods. Although
there were never any other humans around me, I never felt alone. I also never thought about it,being alone, as a child, it was just something that
felt natural to me.
I was never more at peace with myself, than my early days. Of course, I always found some kind of creature, frogs, lizards, occasionally a bat, or
raccoon and they would become my "friends". Yes, I suppose I was a strange child. But so at peace with everything in my life.
As I grew older, I lost this sense of peace. I've tried to regain it, even walking alone in the forest, but it seems to allude me. My life has been
filled with anxiety, fears, thoughts of survival, bills, etc. My brain just wont SHUT UP!! Even sleeping becomes a task to just shut the thoughts up!
Sometimes the most annoying songs will play over and over and drive me up the wall!