Welcome to the forum...if you ever make it here.
The subtle quality of your tonal scale-pitched and metered; your genuine, polite, starkness of conveyance; your youthful complexion-you look 20 years
old, yet 40 (?).
I was wondering if you know yourself to be Autism spectrum, slight Down syndrome, or have another non-psychotic brain difference?
(viewing Down syndrome 'as more like' mid point autism spectrum-and less like 'comatose walking,' as I believe, others, including the medical
industry percieve it-is the personal actuated preference of myself only-I am not stating anything in here as scientifically proven fact, nor am I a
credentialled medical professional-or claim to be)
It's just, ""I am", know myself to be, can be spotted as, and can find my answers within and around the umbrella of explaination relevant
to topics influenced by spectrum order Q and A.
I've found, and, it has been superficially explained to me, and I've processed it like this: that, say, if all of the world fell into two
there would, Macrocosmically, (for purposes of communication, and each team's mental illnesses as a 'mute point here due to length of discussion'
side bar), two brain mappings.
And here is a little about them, as seen from my eyes, while pondering you, Tom. I attempt to not offend.
(below approximation for start point purposes, only)
Camp 1 80 percent world's population.
Camp 2 20 percent world's population.
If, every one in these two camps were to be stuck in one place and sorted by brain mapping specifications, there would, on one side, be 80
percent. And, on the other side there would be 20 percent.
The 80%, Camp 1, has a brain mapping system who's major highways are clear and solid, universially understood-by them- and will, if layed atop each
other-overlap easily and compatibaly with any one of it's members; as well as atop Camp 2's. If each map were on a clear film and stacked, the map
systems would line up.
The 20%, Camp 2, has a brain mapping system who's major highways are clear and solid, universally understood-by them- and will, if layed atop each
other-overlap easily and compatibaly with any one of it's members; as well as atop Camp 1's.
Both have the same off ramps and signs.
However, when they do, it is clearly seen through the film that the #2 camp member's map of vast system's of tributaries (and off ramps, signs, ect)
is glowing. And not just glowing, but in a randomly changing pattern. And each one of Camp 2's member tributary maps are glowing in this
randomly changing pattern-but not in unison with each other even!
What does it mean?
(psst)science has gotten that far. As far as: 'What does it mean?'. One group of thinkers in the science community, I dare venture
from Camp 2 themselves-frustrated and concerned at Camp 1's methods of guess work and experimentation based upon 'guess work and harmful prodding',
have thought to let Camp 2 answer that themselves, a bit. As, well.... science didn't have the answer.
'A' Camp's Scenario
Let us say a member of Camp 1 and a member of Camp 2 are friends, neighbors, siblings, what have you. They each have the day off and have thought
together that they should make a day of it together.
Camp 2 thinks of this wonderful winding drive he's been crazy to have a reason to go on, that is in the direction of, and happens to endpoint at the
beach; and volunteers "Hey-uh (Brilliant smile to Camp 1), Let's go to the beach!(Mental question mark to Camp 1 accompanied by look requesting
feedback to *idea*. No response to *idea*.)".
Camp 2 *thinks* of the shinning sunny day, and the sands, and the waves, and responds brilliantly grinning, "Yeah that's a fine *idea* let's do
it!" (Camp 1 note to 'self Camp 1': Why is Camp 2 grinning like that??...Question mark. Suspicion. Loss of thought.)
Camp 2, sees Camp 1 is on board with the day; Camp 1 sees Camp 2 is on board with the day. They are both going to the beach. This is where the solid
structure of the mapping system 'lines up'.
When Camp 1 carpools with Camp 2, to a destination of Camp 2's choice and Camp 1's agreement, say, the beach; Camp 1 is expecting to get from point
A to point B-in the way that Camp 1 *has in it's mind* this ought to be achieved.
Camp 1 is vastly annoyed by the route that camp 2 takes to 'get there'. And Camp 2 is confused by Camp 1's behavior during this journey.
So it has been decided...
Camp 2 drives. To the beach. On 'beach day'. Which, for Camp 2 might happen to only be twice in a lifetime. This being one of those times. Camp 2
has really been looking forward to the opportunity to see all those sights he normally just passes on the way to some pre-sceduled, mandatory
destination, such as work or school. They are *right there*.
And that is what he thought she was thinking too. Camp 2 is a boy and Camp one is a girl of their respective camps, in this instance. Though it is as
likely the other way around, as not. Gender moot in other words.
Camp 2 can see that the 'Interstate' is filled with off ramps and back roads, nature preserves, tourist attractions, coffee shops, and beautiful
sights. Camp 1 can't easily accept that Camp 2 has chosen beach day to drive by each and every one of them along the way, at that particular
point in time, as it seems rude and inconsiderate of them.
Camp 2 on the other hand, enjoying what is turning out to be a fine day, is hurt and a little confused by what seems to be Camp 1's change of heart
of what had formerly been a "cohesive, paired, and agreed upon *idea* between the two". Camp 2 *has in it's mind* how beach day is supposed to look
and feel. Camp 1 *has in it's mind* how beach day is supposed to look and feel. They both think that the other is *thinking* the same thing. They
When "A" Camp 1 is speaking (dealing) with a Camp 1 they are both on an identically worded page.
Camp 1 can not accurately read Camp 2.
Camp 2 has no explaination for why what Camp 1 says is incompatible/conflicting with what Camp 1 then does/acts out.
To Camp 2, short side stops along the way to off roads, nature preserves, tourist attractions, coffee shops, and the beautiful sights is obviously
supposed to occur, as, they are obviously along the way-it's beach day-and it's glaringly obvious in the manner and tone of 'any
reasonable person would agree with this'. But Camp 1 does not-or so it would seem. As, each time the car slows Camp 1 sighs. And each time it stops,
Camp 1 raises it's voice in a screech or exasperation, "Why are we stopping here!?".
Camp 1 thinks Camp 2 is purposefully 'just being rude and embarrassing, or instigating'. And, Camp 1 is embarrassed by it.
And Camp 2 has no idea why Camp 1 would think that, whatever that was, and on beach day of all days!!!
If we were to apply this to you, Tom, if you fit the mold that I am speaking of, by any stretch of the word; or to me, or to any one who falls in the
minority CAMP 2... we, or they, or whomever, might better understand that a trip to the beach.... or, in your case, a trip to the stars...
Important to the one taking it-most of all.
If someone asks, or it is implied that they would like to *know* how or what your journey was, and, you tell them, but they stop
listening, or take the time they have *asked* you to give and they laugh at it, or bully it, or bully you, or ignore everything about it that they
*requested* in the first place, then....
ah. Life in minority Camp 2, in a majority Camp 1 world. Camp 1 wants the answers to questions; and while often embarrassing all of
us, by being openly embarrassed. And, Camp 2 openly asks "Why is it that you feel..that?"
[edit on 24-1-2009 by HugmyRek]