posted on Jan, 19 2009 @ 05:23 AM
yo dude. first, im no dr or fancy speaker, but i know about depression and it does drive people insane.
what i have sussed works is to find a few things in life that when you have them your happy, their will be some, mine is as simple as having some tea
bags, tobbacco and (sorry mods) a bit of weed. I woudl never take prescribed anti depression drugs as all the drugs do is numb you to the saddness
that comes and goes. As long as i have that 3 minimums in my life i can function, its not perfect but it works and it manages to keep my mind off
i was also a lot worse and more manic in the depression front before i had a job (i was unemployed for ages). Idle hands do the devils work the
saying says, and i really know what that means. When im not doing anything, just sitting about depression sets in fast, when im doing stuff it trys
to pop its head up but because im doing something the bad thoughts just fade away.
Suicide .. really, its not worth it , i thought that would help but i (a) didnt have teh balls and (b) its pointless. I came to teh assumption that
being dead wouldnt sort anything, it would maybe make some ppl sad for a change, but it would also devestate family and friends and thats not good.
i dont know how or if your disabled, but you say your signed off work so i guess you are in some form, if your signed off with depression, then try
and get into work..something easy where you can speak to people about nothing peticiluar, or even start playing some online community game.
ill close with this.. if things are that bad you think your better off dead, then seriously it can only get better!! try and think possitive, have
some day dreams about things you want in life then try achieving them goals, even if you dont achieve them, thinking about something possitive will
oh.. and ditch the astral projection ect, stuff like that will mess you up even more.. get something solid in your life, something possitive that to
actualy do or touch and spend time on that.
hope my words help a bit, like i said, im no dr or seriously intelligent dude, but i go through depressive outbursts and they such, what i said above
is what has helped me through the last part of my life.