Originally posted by eyeforalie
reply to post by PhyberDragon
YES. You are 100% correct. You summed up my last year pretty well. I am a motivated person but honestly I wish for death often.
They finally released me from the Sanitorium, but, I stood by my beliefs they everyday I was in there, and I stand by them now.
They say that we are emotionally fragile and mentally unstable to feel this way-- when feeling this way is exactly what got women able to overturn
laws granting custody to men. It was only reversed onto us, not dealt with as a very real issue. I know how you feel because it is how tens of
thousands if not millions of parents feel. Go to a Paternity or Fathers rights forums and conduct a survey yourself. There are even mother's and some
other relatives and non relatives in similiar positions. We are this way emotionally because it is an issue we care about more than breathing. It
doesn't make us a threat to our children, it makes us a threat to everyone else, because when they stop caring about how we feel, we stop caring
about how they feel. These feelings we have aren't isolated to us. You can make a formidable army of the vast numbers of disgruntled parents whose
patience is all but gone or wiped extremely thin.
Suicide is not the option. You are no good to us dead. If for that reason alone Father's (mother's and Guardians) in your Class care. We do
understand, and, short of my psychologists, psychiatrist, pharmacologist and the Pleadings I have to forever write to these incompetant Judges, I do
not apologize for my feelings, and neither should you. If you hide them the World will never learn, and we'll be one step closer to the pacified
cattle of Society. So say how you feel and don't blame yourself. I don't know who did what, but, the System allowed it to be that way. I'm 100%
certain of it, even without knowing your details.
I feel dead everyday and nothing has any meaning for me. My daughter was taken as a baby, and my case is complicated so I won't go there, except to
say, it was her mother who lost her not me, I wasn't even allowed access or visitations, even though they are Court Ordered that I get them. I've
gone through 8 cases and will be on to the 9th this year- one a Federal Class Action Suit. I've gone through 6 lawyers, and the last few cases I just
do all of it myself-- lawyers suck, I've gotten more done without them. And even though I can prove that the allegations were false and fabricated,
even by the Social Worker who filed them's own admission under oath that she made it all up, I still don't get to see my daughter. I refuse to pay
child support because of the fact that they established 2 Paternity's for me and stole my custody, which I've also proven, and I will not pay the
ransom. The State and Fed CS and Courts decided that they will not pursue me for CS and even though I am over 5 close to $10000 in arrears (a felony)
they will not come after me even after my repeated requests that they do, since I informed them that I know that a civil case is not a trial and their
reason's for taking and keeping her from me are not crimes, but that failure to pay over $5000 is, therefore, I will not only be required an attorney
who I will make file and do exactly what I tell him without being able to even talk to the judge or prosecutor without me, plus I'll be entitled to a
trial by jury which a Civil Case would not entitle me too, well, I look forward to perosecution for failure to pay- it's exactly what I want for a
check mate to my and Father's rights.
My daughter doesn't even know I exist, nor will those raising her tell her, they have declared as much. And even though I have visitation rights I
can not see her. The Social Worker admitted she lied and had nothing on either me or the mother,yet, here I sit.
Oh yes, I want to do things to them that would make God cry and the devil cringe, beacause I can't I feel as though I want to die, deserve to die,
for failing to protect my baby from those monsters the System. Ifeel not one bit ashamed about it. they should be on their knees praying I never
change my mind. My daughter's best interests are what I her Father say they are. Her mother could care less. So, yes, I understand your pain. Use it.
don't let it use you. I'm as sane as the next guy, that's why the Sanitorium had to let me go. I suffer what they call Anti Socio Psychosis. I sure
do. I hate the System and would not care if I saw it burn to ashes. But, I have better ways to hurt them. I go for their wallet, even as they go for
mine. I have already cost the State of Kentucky more in legal expenses arguing with me than they will ever collect to support my daughter 3 times
over. They won't even pursue me because, I'll cost them 10 times more than that when they do. And when I reach this next venue, I'll be able to
present evidences already presented to the original Court, so, they can't dismiss them saying I never brought it all up, they thought I was nuts for
rambling on and submitting irrelevant evidence after irrelevant evidence, until they realized I knew what they'd do-- it's what they always do. I
banked on it and was right. Now with the teary eyed confessions of lies by all the accuser's and witness statements in my defense from ton's of
related professionals, and with the mother standing down in her claim for custody, I have no opposition, I win.
So, they won't pursue Child Support, because it'd be a public criminal trial with witnesses and I'll prove 1000% with no opposition from the State
how my daughter and I were screwed. Plus the damages they'd all owe us too.
Even if I never know my daughter or she know me, they will never interfere with me and any other child I have in the future and have already declared
as much to me. I've filed more into the record than any other case of it's type, and more goes in by the year.
Don't give up, learn your opponent better than they know themselves. Go for their wallet, even as they go for yours, they will turn you loose. If
more people would do this, the System would collapse under it's own weight, simply because it couldn't afford to operate. You can win.
Oh. And they couldn't jail me I'd likely just get a temporary stay back at the Mental hospital. Even if they could they wouldn't as I would spread
my ideas among the prison(s) to those similiarly incarcerated
[edit on 18-1-2009 by PhyberDragon]