posted on Dec, 24 2008 @ 09:51 AM
I experienced an event this morning that may have validated something which has been lying in wait inside me since I was born. I find it odd that this
happened on Christmas Eve, so I thought I would throw it out there for discussion. Also, I post here because I'm not sure this is a religious event.
First, let me say that probably my entire adult life, for some reason people, especially women, (whom I have never met in my life) will either sit
down next to me or come up to me and start a conversation. Now on face value thats not that strange, but normally it isn't long before they start
mentioning things about themselves or their lives that probably shouldn't be told to a complete stranger!
It's almost as if I have this neon sign on my forehead flashing "trust me"
I have many such stories but the two that I would like to share deal with my wife and the man I had my experience with this morning.
I have been working on a real estate development transaction with a gentleman for over a year now. We are business associates but not close friends
(he has to be in his late 60's/early 70's). Well, I'm on my way to work and I get this call from him wanting to meet with me right away. To make a
long story short I met him in the parking lot of a local Starbucks and for an hour he proceeded to tell me his life story even breaking down at one
point. He said he was telling me things that he wouldn't even tell his wife whom he has been married to for a very long time.
He is from a generation who never voice their inner feelings yet here he was laying it on the line to someone he does not know that well. he kept
using the word trust.....ALOT!
On the way back to the office I started thinking about how many times I have heard that word mentioned to me over the years by people who were talking
about there inner feelings toward me. You know things like "I feel like you're someone I can trust".
Finally and ironically I was having an argument one evening with my wife and in the heat of debate I spouted out something like "I'm tired of
carrying everyone else's problems on my shoulders!" What she said to me finally makes sense. She said "That's your job....to bear the brunt!"
So here's my question. Can it be that pre-destiny does exist and we are really here to perform one task so to speak? Can it be that my pre-destined
ability (which I have fought against all my life by the way) is to bear the brunt? To obtain peoples trust and somehow make them feel better by
I'm talking about something much deeper than psychology here and what really freaks me out is that I don't trust anyone!
I would appreciate knowing if any of you have ever had these types of feelings and what you did about them. Right now I feel like I'm having some
kind of epithny or something. I only hope its not to late.
Thanks for reading this lengthy post.