i have wondered this since i was a little girl, strangely enough. when i was around 7 i had the idea that we are all just little dolls being played
with by some giants. Obviously this analogy came from the fact that I played with my Barbies in that way...I controlled what they did and what they
said and how they interacted. I really believed this was a possibility, even that young. Now, obviously I don't think there are giants playing with
us and determining our lives; but i do think there is something bigger. Is this all an illusion? I don't know... sometimes it feels like
it...doesn't feel real all of the time. It's a strange feeling, right? Another thing that has bothered me since I was around 7 is the fact that
church taught me we all come from God...and i STILL don't understand where he/it came from. My little 7 year old brain would lie awake at night,
wondering how God came about from nothing...and then I would think that nothing couldn't exist either, blackness is what i think of as nothing...but
if its blackness then its SOMETHING. so yea, lol, these thoughts started at 7 and still haven't ceased 13 years later! I wish i knew the answers.




